Happy Halloween! On a Friday no less - double bonus! Mushy and I will go to the Halloween on the Square this eve - vendors, booths, bands, and unless that freaky Texas weather thing happens it'll be cool enough for her to enjoy.
As today kicks off non-stop holidays for the next two months let's turn our scales back 10lbs when we turn the clocks back an hour this weekend, shall we?
Well, I thought I'd gone on full tilt when I couldn't find 'butter creme frosting' in the food diary. I thought 'I've finally eaten something no FS'er would eat!' Yeah, it's been that kind of 24 hours. But I did find something similar and will use that. AT least it wasn't as bad as I'd anticipated. But not as well as I'd like to report.
Yesterday started well but imploded around noon when I thought I could actually create and bake 'bacon, onion, garlic, cheese knots' and not eat half the pan if I were here unsupervised. Lesson learned - do those creative baking attempts in the evening when B's crew can come get them.
Lesson two has to do with baking desserts. For me the safe word will be DON'T! Not right now as I found myself incapable of resisting homemade cinnamon rolls topped with Dulce de Leche icing.
Lesson three would be once I do trust myself baking desserts again extra left over icing needs to be poured out. Storing the extra in the fridge for baking something else in the future seems innocent but turns ugly real fast.
So ... I'm doubling the water intake today to help flush out the sugar. Tuna for brunch. So far I'm doing well. I'm working on my 'event' projects and later if I take a break from that I'll browse online for healthy holiday dish recipes; something to utilize my creative drive in the kitchen without kicking my blood sugar into overdrive or my weight loss off the cliff.
And this is why I journal. Writing this just now I recognize I've not really done this much of that this journey; I've been working more on the emotional part of eating, mindful eating, portion control and 'real food, good food, just not too much of it'.
But I think in my endeavors to not fall into my disordered eating traps I've gone a little far to the left on the choices. I know the guideline is 'don't eat anything your Great-Grandmother wouldn't recognize' but then again that woman seemed to subsist on coffee and cigarettes. I did not grow up in healthy kitchen homes.
So while I'm not going to start gliding back into the processed 'fat free' stuff, I'm going to look for lighter ways to cook. This may be the thing that helps me get thru the next year ~ get a few really good dishes under my belt that won't make my belly billow over it.
Wishing all of my wonderful friends here a safe & happy evening. Watch out for the tricksters.
Bella
