2ManyCurves's Journal, 23 August 2014

Inconsistency breeds poor results. I have been out of town all week with work and used that as my poor excuse to eat and drink to excess. The gluttony is behind me now. Today, I started the day with an hour of Zumba. Tomorrow will be a long run (15 miler).

Returning to school after all of these years has brought on quite a bit of anxiety and fear of failure. I scored an 83% on a chem quiz when I made a stupid mistake in a calculation which sent me into an all out panic mode. I had to remind myself to relax, breath and take my time. My first week of classes was comprised of me working and reading nearly four weeks ahead of schedule. I rush. It is one of my biggest impediments to success. I rush through everything, always looking to complete a task and quickly move on to the next. I do this in weight loss too. I focus so far ahead and rush toward my goal rather than simply sitting back and letting things occur naturally in a steady pace. This sets me up for frustration and ultimately I will resign myself to failure for taking on too much, too quickly. SOOOO....my new focus is PACING myself. I know how to do this. I do it every long run. Sure, I can take off out of the front door on a fifteen mile jaunt running a 6:35 pace but I will burn out after the first mile. Or, I can sit back in cruise pace of 12:26 and keep rolling the entire fifteen miles. I think the same can be applied to my food intake. Drastically cutting my calories will burn me out in 2-3 days whereas a moderate intake will get me to the goal slower, but perhaps more steady.

Thus, my weight loss goal for this week is to maintain a slow and steady pace.

I'm not weighing myself until the end of the month. It isn't so much that I am worried what the scale will say. I just know that weighing frequently for me has triggered disordered eating lately. I'm not recommending a step away from the scale for everyone. I just know that I am no good when the OCD kicks in and I drop below a healthy intake just to see that brief atta-girl from the scale. Trying to focus on healthy intake and output needs to be more important than seeing numerical results.

That being said, I caught a glimpse of the side of my lower leg in the dance mirrors when I was doing zumba class this morning. I have muscles in my lower legs now that I never was able to see before. Dare I say, I have some sexy stems going on. Haha

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1863 kcal

Fat: 84.51g | Prot: 76.20g | Carb: 205.50g.   Lunch: Cucumber (with Peel), Giant Eagle Cherry Tomatoes, Marketside Baby Kale and Spinach Blend, Kraft Honey Mustard Dressing & Dip, Egg, Tyson Foods Breaded Chicken Breast Tenderloins, Tostitos Baked Tostitos Scoops, Frigo Light String Cheese, Baked Sweetpotato (Peel Eaten, Fat Not Added in Cooking). Dinner: Amy's Orange Pound Cake, Fried Batter-Dipped Okra, Dinner Rolls, Brown Gravy, Mashed Potato, Beef Chuck (Blade Roast, Trimmed to 1/4" Fat). Snacks/Other: Smucker's Strawberry Jam, Jif Natural Creamy Peanut Butter, Aunt Millie's Healthy Goodness Fiber & Flavor Potato Bread. more...

2183 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Dance (fast step, aerobic) - 1 hour, Sleeping - 23 hours. more...