Day 19: Monday morning clean slateNo protection from frustration
I wish I felt more energetic and enthusiastic today but I don't. My 6AM pilates class was not scheduled this morning and it has always been there. It was very unsettling for it not to be there. A government agency had notified me on Saturday that they were terminating my policy due to not receiving an application by May 1st. The application was submitted in March and they have no record of it. Trying to get a hold of the facilitator was very frustrating. There were so many things going on that I could not control and it was maddening.
My kids had a similar day. They are both thin as rails and yet my daughter wanted to "eat her feelings" with peanut butter clusters. Did she learn it from me? Probably or maybe it's everywhere on TV, movies and internet. Even my sister wanted to bring Raisinettes to a Broadway Show!
I've eaten crap and now I feel like crap. It's been a heavy price to pay. Hopefully, next time, I will remember what this feels like and not put myself through this again. My plan is to go running and swimming tonight and it's the last thing I feel like doing. I could just go to sleep. I will do the exercising and, hopefully, the endorphins will kick in and I will be glad I did.
It took so long for the weight to come off and no time to put it back on. Kind of sucks, doesn't it?