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Reading the book called The Sugar Addict's Total Recovery Program. Today I added the protein to my oatmeal in the form of protein powder and it tasted really good and being french vanilla it had a sweetness to it. So I didnt need the stevia. I am as addicted to stevia as I ever was to sugar in my coffee. I now know it is the taste of sweeteness that drives these sugar/carbo cravings. I am trying to get better. I want to feel clear headed and alert and strong, not lethargic most of the time.
I am having a lethargic morning. Ate my oats and protein with almond fresh and I still feel very tired. I was on my damaged feet a lot yesterday and that might account for some of the fatigue I feel. Not having normal feet accounts for a lot of tiredness I may feel physically. What really bothers me more is the mental lethargy and fogginess. I never feel like I am quite wide awake. I have felt that while having caffinated coffee with sugar and a muffin or scone but soon after I feel awful. I feel comforted while eating the carb but now I crave them more which makes me overeat. I end up too full and all sugar'd out. I really want to stop this crazy merrygoround with sugar sensitivity. I feel so out of control and just want to feel good.
My weight is right where I want it but I have to work out hard every day almost and stay very active to keep it there. I never want the exercisng to feel like a thing of resentment. I love being fit but not because it is the only way to control my weight. I don't want to be a foodie...I dont' want to be non social because I want to eat more than my share of food. I have lately been day dreaming about eating a whole pie with ice cream all to myself. I Know I would get sick doing that but the thought is there quite frequently. I fantazise about eating a huge plate of spagetti from Anton's in Burnaby. I also still think about having a few beer or wine and I know I can't stop at one. Two will set me up to crave carbs in the worst way ever. I have been noticing that so much more over the last couple of years. I yearn for breads all kinds of them. No, alcohol and sugar are things that I cannot have in my life anymore. I am learning how to live with eating them the way this book says to eat them.
Diet Calendar Entry for 30 July 2015:
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2192 kcal
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Fat: 95.56g | Prot: 140.02g | Carb: 212.78g.
Breakfast: Almond Fresh Almond Milk, Protein Powder GOLD STANDARD FRENCH VANILLA, Almond Fresh Almond Milk, Joe's Tasty Travels Ground Flax Seeds, President's Choice Steel Cut Oats. Lunch: PAM COCONUT OIL SPAY, President's Choice Broccoli Slaw, Ginger, Garlic, Chinese Broccoli (Cooked), President's Choice Blue Menu Skinless Boneless Chicken Breast, Nutiva Coconut Oil Extra Virgin. Dinner: Dairyland Creamo Half & Half, Chocolate Chip Muffin. Snacks/Other: Pure Protein Vanilla Cream Protein Powder, Earth's Own Almond Fresh Unsweetened, Pink Lady Apples, on GOLD STANDARD Protein Powder GOLD STANDARD FRENCH VANILLA, Olympic Krema Greek Yogurt, Pink Lady Apples, Peanuts in Shell (Shell Not Eaten). more...
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