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I am just so sick of my appetite. Most of the month, it is out of control. Sometimes, especially around my period, it calms down. Last month, at that time I was so happy that my appetite was calm that I basically didn't eat much. Like 600-800cals a day. And then it picked up and I started binging like crazy again. I am so sick of it.
I know what I NEED to eat and do to be healthy and lose weight - but my neverending hunger just ruins it all. I can white knuckle through it and feel miserable or I can give in and feel miserable in a different way.
So I'm trying to figure out ways to deal with my appetite so that it's not torture. I know that I have to track my sugar and refined carbs. I know that I need to increase my protein by a lot.
More protein
Less sugar
I bought some protein powder even. I really, really, really hope this helps me. I had some of that today already, plus 3 eggs and a bunch of beef (and some coffee with cream). I still feel ravenous though. What's up??? :/
I hope I can deal with this. I am sort of following the radiant recovery process. I have already been doing step 2 - journalling everything I eat and how I feel and what I'm doing. Now I'm trying to add step one and focus on protein in the mornings - enough protein - and within an hour of waking up. So this is my goal. To try not to freak out too much about everything. To try to eat healthy foods and focus on being healthy. My weight is stupid and maybe it won't budge for awhile, but I really need to work on stopping these binges. They are driving me mad, and pushign me further into disordered eating patterns.
So. Protein. Pleeeeaaaassse help me! (I'm talking to the protein here, lol)
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