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Uh, well. I've hit some sort of block. I can't say i was ever thin past puberty and I was NEVER all that active. After high school I lost weight for no reason from 180-160 over a few years. Then I got pregnant and I'm stuck in the 170's only now I see gradual weight gain. I did a few weeks of what I call strict dieting. I never went over 2500 calories, I did zumba everyday, I measured everything from peanut butter to milk and cereal but alas, I still live with my parents and my dad demands cookies weekly and I fell off, plus summer school hit and my schedule left no room for working out. Now every other day I hate the way I look, when I don't hate it I love it; love the folds, the thickness everything. I've picked up another set of rules to follow, I'll try not to eat breads, and pastas, I already don't do fast food that much. I try to drink only water and when I feel hungry I drink water and wait to see if I am really even hungry, and I try not to eat after 7...but I've been pushing it to 8 since my mom cooks so late. Sweets are my real issue though, I feel like I don't even like meat that much, I don't get excited when my mom cooks anymore because she's a health nut who can't give up cheese. She substitutes turkey for everything; turkey tacos, turkey bacon. She has egg whites which simply have to taste to me, like tofu or something. But if I cut it all out its like I literally have nothing to eat in the house and I'm no rabbit.
I just have no idea what to do, being unemployed isn't helping and I'm a total homebody I don't like going anywhere, I'd get lost going down the street-i'm ridiculous and I have no friends...I do but they're scattered across the country, the world even so no one I hang out with even on an every 6 month basis.
I'm thinking on taking B12, I hear it gives you energy but I haven't researching anything. I don't want to do diet pills because I did them when I was like 16 and I went nuts with it taking four in the morning and at night, I'm surprised I never got sick.
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