RubyRedSox's Journal, 27 May 2013

OT; I've been living between a daze and lots of emotional pain. I've been at my daughter's home in Seattle since Saturday. There's been so much family stress but when I got the call Friday the 24th that my 33 year old son had died on the freeway, nothing seems to matter except getting through this. My daughter and older son are struggling with losing a sibbling while I "mom" have to come to terms with losing my child.

Admitedly, I'm self medicating with some dry wine to ease the trembling. Because of the holiday weekend, we can't even pick up my sons personal affects from the medical examiner until Tuesday. It was a bad accident so I' m hoping that no one has to view him. I'd prefer we all remember Luke the way he was.

Anyway in working through this, I felt the need to journal a bit from my daughter's nook as I try to wrap my head around this.

Hoping everyone is having a safe holiday.
Hugs,
Dianna

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Dianna, I am so sorry to hear about your son. I know what you're going through. I lost my 26 year old May 23rd 19 years ago. Everything else seemed so trivial by comparison. You will get through this and while I still think of my son everyday it's with love and not pain. Best wishes to you and your family. Hugs to you. Pat 
27 May 13 by member: irisheyes63
Thank you Pat. I'm sorry for your loss as well. It was such a shock with all that has happened. I had been worried about my daughter passing for years as she's been so ill all her life. Thank you Pat for your encouragement!  
27 May 13 by member: RubyRedSox
Oh sweetie..that has to be the worst thing to happen for a mother...My heart goes out to you and yours...Praying all goes well and you can get through this...Love and Hugs...Love and Hugs...:O( 
27 May 13 by member: BHA
Thank you Bren. I'm just dealing one day at a time. :/ 
27 May 13 by member: RubyRedSox
Dianna, I can't even come close to knowing how you feel. I am there with you in prayer. Our children are our lives and to lose one so senselessly is beyond pain. I hope you are able to get through the next days with the love of your family, friends and the love of us here. Know we care. -- Bonnie 
28 May 13 by member: Johanne
Thank you Bonnie. Right now we're dealing with all the details. We have to wait for my sons father to ok the cremation. The same father who abused and abandoned the kids years ago. That's holding up getting his car out of the towing companys yard. It's the law. The bills are adding up and the stress is high. We are trying to come up with all the money needed.. just us 3, the 2 kids and myself and I need to get back home. I am so wore out. 
29 May 13 by member: RubyRedSox
Dianna I am so very very sorry and know that this must be impossible for you to understand. I will keep you and your family in my prayers and beg for you to find some comfort through this very difficult time. Please take care of you as best you can. We are here for you when you need to write. 
29 May 13 by member: Neptunebch
Dianna, I am so sorry for the loss of your son, Luke. You and your family are in my prayers. Blessings, Dessa 
29 May 13 by member: DessaLyn
Oh hun, I am so very sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my thoughts. I cannot imagine how you or your family is feeling.  
03 Jun 13 by member: phsmalls
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09 Jun 13 by member: RubyRedSox
Very sorry to read of your loss xxx  
09 Jun 13 by member: kazredhead

     
 

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