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I realize now more than ever that a body needs to move to be able to help it in weight loss, but I am having trouble trying to balance it all. My mind is not allowing to be be able to process it all and be able to move. In other words the rituals, and over thinking make it pretty much impossible so it seems. I think at work and I think at home, but why is it that I suffer with the compulsive more at home than at work, though I think my hands still have to keep more busier to get it all done. I feel down when I think to myself how did I end up like this meaning situation in life and not body. The body kind of falls in second gear, I guess cause we are animals that we have to figure out ways to survive more than our looks, looks are important especially with women, but when confronted any animal would say survival comes first, even humans. So the real question is how do we do it all? How do we get our dreams across make it happen, and how do we get our weight goals across and get and make that happen? Is it possible to do it all, to also tone our flabby skin, to get our tummies tucked in, to make the spirit happy, content and comfortable? How does one DO IT ALL? Since I am a thinker I think it which takes time then I have to try to cope with it which means rituals, which means more time, wasted? Or is it? Who said vicious cycle, come into my world and I will show anyone who does not know that meaning, vicious cycle, yes, we all have it in our own and unique ways. Looking back at George with his cigarettes, he would throw one out before he would go into the store, then he would light one up when he stepped into the pickup, in a day, you don't see it, but by following a pattern and studying it one can plainly see. How can we stop the vicious cycle of the world, that's just it because it becomes habits, and habits are just too hard to change, unless you take up another bad habit in it's place, most of the time! Which brings us back to time, how much time here on earth do we have anyway? It seems like for ever this day that we are so, so fortunate to have, but we know that is not the case at all. Looking back in time what do I want to see......I want to see that no matter how hard things were that I did try, I did not forget to be human......to dream, to be compassionate, to feel and touch and be touched with learning and self improvement from this world. The sad would be to let the compulsiveness rob and cheat me from everything! I always tell my kids cause one day I won't be here to tell them, like my son and my daughter, you always have choices no matter what. So for today I choose peace for my spirit, and though my mind goes 100 miles an hour and I cannot get one thing done so it seems, at least I charted my food, and today perhaps I could not forget to live, to move more, to see the beautiful sunlight of this fabulous Missouri Spring Day!
Diet Calendar Entry for 24 April 2010:
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1271 kcal
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Fat: 50.95g | Prot: 107.68g | Carb: 104.96g.
Breakfast: Kellogs Rice krispy cereal, Prarie farms Skim milk, Italian Bread, Borden fat free american cheese slices, chicken breast. Lunch: frozen mixed vegetables, chicken breast. Dinner: lemon pepper skinless chicken breast baked, Mixed Vegetables - Freshly Frozen. Snacks/Other: orange, Natural Almonds 100 Calorie Pack, Dry Roasted Peanuts (Without Salt), Milk Chocolate Bar with Almonds (Giant). more...
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