I'm 47. I'm a wife, a mother, and a grandmother.

About four years ago, I went to the doctor and found out that I was "pre-diabetic" and had high blood pressure. It scared me and I started dieting. Well, I should say, I just quit eating much. I lost 40lbs and seemed to have things under control. Until I started eating again...

Fast forward four years....I am the heaviest that I've ever been. My muscles are sore, I have no energy, My belly seems to be in the way of everything that I want to do. I'm embarrassed to change my clothes in front of my husband. Nothing feels right when I wear it. I went to the doctor last week. I now have Type 2, they've had to double my dosage of bp med, I have high cholesterol, and my doctor seems to think that it's depression (I am extremely emotional). I though that it is just because I'm starting menopause....apparently, not.

I know that I am an emotional eater. I know that I'm depressed and that I turn to food. My husband, bless his heart, really tries to understand and support me, but he can't really understand what it's like for me. He thinks I should just eat when I'm hungry. I so wish it was that easy for me. So, here I am....hoping to find support outside of my family. People who understand my struggle.

So...here I am. Fat, unhealthy, depressed, and sick to death of being this way. It's time to make the changes necessary to get healthy and take my life back!