losinit1655's Journal, 07 December 2015

Can't explain it -- couldn't even with Einstein's DNA and multiple PhDs from Oxford, Cambridge and the Ivies . . . oh well, trying not to dwell on that number on the scale either way and instead use it as a tool to keep me 'in check'. I'm pretty much at my desired 'size' (firmly wearing an 8, occasionally in a 6, so we'll call it a 7.5), but certainly more work to be done in the 'shape' department (toning and building muscle). And yet - if I'm being honest - now I'm suddenly both 'fixated' on getting into the 130s and at the same time worried that this unrealistic and likely 'phantom' drop will justify even more 'deviating' from plan in the future. More convinced than ever that I will ALWAYS be waging this internal battle with food/eating and must simply continue to 'arm myself' and plug along.
And speaking of 'mind games' and all things 'mental,' I've been thinking a lot about that side of the weight loss/fitness equation lately . . . I've noticed lots of posts since I've been on FS from members wanting to erase YEARS of doubt, negative self-talk and perception and replace those with healthy esteem and positive reinforcement . . . not saying that's not a noble/worthy goal (and a goal of my own), but it's also one that takes both LOTS of time and consistent 'chiseling away' at what are likely decades-old wounds that have formed our psyches. So expecting to 'turn that around' in short order is a bit like trying to throw the Titanic in reverse to avoid the iceberg.
As a 'stepping stone' in that direction, I've been thinking about smaller -- though in my mind, still significant and even paradigm-shifting changes in thought/behavior -- changes so subtle that they're almost unconscious and nearly imperceptible. For example, when I pull into a parking lot these days, I'm not on the lookout for the 'closest' spot -- I'm merely pulling into the first spot I see regardless of its distance to the entrance/exit. Or not avoiding photographs like the plague. Or spending much more time on the 'perimeter' of the grocery store (fresh produce, etc.) vs. inner aisles.
I challenge FSers to examine their everyday behavior closely and discover some of your own 'paradigm shifts' similar to the ones listed above and use THOSE changes as stepping stones to a better self-image.
Have a great week!
140.6 lb Lost so far: 56.4 lb.    Still to go: 13.6 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entries for 07 December 2015:
1082 kcal Fat: 33.82g | Prot: 58.88g | Carb: 142.26g.   Breakfast: Starbucks Caffe Misto with Soy (Tall), Starbucks Spinach Feta Egg White Wrap, Raspberries, Chiquita Banana, Fage Total 0% Greek Yogurt. Dinner: Kashi Chicken Florentine. Snacks/Other: Trader Joe's Sweet Potato Tortilla Chips, Hershey's Kit Kat (Snack Size). more...
1554 kcal Activities & Exercise: Resting - 16 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
on diet losinit1655's own diet   losing 7.0 lb a week

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GREAT post...full of WISDOM...thanks for sharing and have a GREAT week!!!!!!! 
07 Dec 15 by member: SuccessThisTime58
Wow, that's amazing! That's half a stone in a week! Well done! And well done for posting it. I think a couple of weeks ago you might have rejected it and refused to post, but it is what it is 😉 And oh yes, I see those shifts all the time, and they're not only little things for me either. I have to stop and think quite often, did I really just do that? Was that me? I'm so much more active, I don't really believe it. Your weight loss has been quite amazing over the last six months, and you're looking really good 😀 Well done, and congratulations! A question: does it matter if you deviate from plan if you're still losing? And by the way, the whole point of 5:2 is that it's absolutely imperative to eat more some days and less on others. I did actually try keeping to low calories on non-fasting days, and my weight-loss stalled. So there you go: sometimes it feels like cheating, but it is part of the plan 😁 
07 Dec 15 by member: heidij123
Heidi -- I can always count on you for rational feedback and to keep me 'grounded' -- and to challenge me to think even more!! My one theory about this drop (when I didn't really make any drastic changes last week, unless you count the 5:2 adherence) -- is that I obviously gained some water weight from my 'deviations' over the last 2-3 weeks and not only lost that, but may have lost additional water weight I was clinging onto (both from TOM and just generally speaking) by trying to attain the water mini-challenge goal (never did meet it, but I was drinking more than usual). At any rate, even though I'm recording my weight, I'm still 'dismissing' it a bit and won't be surprised at all if I edge back up for inexplicable reasons next week. As to your question about plan deviations . . . I suppose it doesn't matter to me as long as I feel comfortable it's a 'legitimate' loss, though I'm not sure I'll ever 'know' that one way or the other. On the one hand, it's somewhat comforting from a 'looking ahead toward maintenance' perspective and on the other hand a bit terrifying that it will be much too easy to fall back off the cliff with this kind of 'leeway.' Clear as mud, right? ;) 
07 Dec 15 by member: losinit1655
Whatever the scales say next week enjoy the great feeling of losing a load of weight this week, although if you have the same loss next week you would be correct to question it! One of my behaviour changes is to use stairs wherever possible :) 
07 Dec 15 by member: eclipsesolaire
Taking stairs vs. elevator (or 'lift')/escalator is another great one, Claire! Another one related to the grocery store is walking the cart back to the racks inside vs. the nearest 'corral' in the parking lot. Yes, even FS 'questioned' my loss when I entered my weight and essentially asked me "Was I sure?" :) 
07 Dec 15 by member: losinit1655
You are so strong of character and of mind. It's a wonderful reminder for all us that we are no longer victim's to many thing's in life when it come's to our weigh loss and life's journey! 
08 Dec 15 by member: Jones Jennifer
I think it's human nature to want to know 'why?', but there isn't always a clear answer. I think I said that before! With a drop like that, it's probably a number of things working together, as you suggest. Anyway, well done! 
09 Dec 15 by member: heidij123

     
 

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