Miraculum's Journal, 11 February 2019

After more than 50 years relying on the scale for affirmation of my "successes" and the condemnation of my "failures," today's scale number would definitely be in the "failure" category.

To the question, "How closely followed?" on my weekly weigh-in today, I opted for "reasonably well" because of the "binge day" day on Thursday, which I discussed in a previous journal entry. But the food diary -- of every bite, every day for the last 46 days -- is proof that "CICO" (calories-in/calories-out) is not the whole story.

In the not-too-distant past, my conditioning would dictate my reaction to that number on the scale: more despair, more self-recrimination, and another binge that would inevitably lead to weeks, even months, of uncontrolled eating and self-hatred.

But I know that today's "scale lie" -- a gain of 9.5 pounds in just one week -- is not a reflection of all my hard work. The evidence that this "weight gain" is fluid, not fat:
~ my swollen feet and tighter rings and watch;
~ sodium increase of 69% this past week over my usual consumption (the daily fix of low-carb/high-fat/moderate protein but massive sodium "Mozzarella Caprese and Diet Root Beer Effect" discussed in a previous journal entry);
~ reduction in body fat of 3% (on the same scale);
~ consistent intermittent fasting (every day but Thursday); and
~ a documented and substantial calorie deficit every day.

So, today, I am rejecting that old conditioning, knowing that the number on the scale is not a measure of my true worth.

One thing I started yesterday: increasing my water consumption from 64 ounces to at least 96 ounces, for now, to flush my system of that sodium overload, and continue my LCHF/keto WOE no matter what.

224.0 lb Lost so far: 61.0 lb.    Still to go: 56.0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entries for 11 February 2019:
1337 kcal Fat: 109.91g | Prot: 63.59g | Carb: 34.45g.   Breakfast: Water, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Safeway Stevia, Harris Teeter heavy cream. Lunch: Tuna in Water (Canned), Celery, Sweet Onions, Sweet Pickle Relish, Water, Minced Garlic, Hellmann's Mayonnaise with Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Water. Dinner: Butter (Salted), Season's Choice Steamed Broccoli Florets, Water. Snacks/Other: Harris Teeter Dry Roasted Macadamia Nuts, Water, Trader Joe's Hass Avocado, Nuttzo Nuttzo, Boar's Head London Broil Cap-off Top Round Oven Roasted Beef. more...
4001 kcal Activities & Exercise: Resting - 2 hours, Watching TV/Computer - 6 hours, Sleeping - 7 hours, Reading - 6 hours, Driving - 2 hours, Cooking - 1 hour. more...
on diet LCHF: Low carb, High fat / Ketogenic Diet   gaining 9.5 lb a week

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I hear you my friend. I am with you Godspeed  
11 Feb 19 by member: Nana Ellen
Good for you. 
11 Feb 19 by member: FullaBella
Thank you, my friends! KETO PARTY ON! 
11 Feb 19 by member: Miraculum
Absolutely- no letting an arbitrary number define your whole progress. Good thinking 
11 Feb 19 by member: liv001
Are you on Keto or CICO? I noticed you mentioned CICO at the Top, but Keto at the bottom? Hopefully the scales are not balanced as the 9.5lbs increase in 1-week is not what is expected. 
11 Feb 19 by member: srossca
Home scales do only one thing and that is measure the weight of a container and it's contents. Since are bodies are mostly fluid, and the amount of fluid it contains can vary wildly from one day to the next, it can be upsetting when the scale goes up. That is why it is so important to ignore the number and just focus on the TREND and why I only record my lowest. 
11 Feb 19 by member: ConiMN
@srossca, my comment that "CICO ... is not the full story" is just my observation, based on my daily and substantial calorie deficits since December 27, 2018. It's also based on research showing that weight is a factor of many interacting hormonal conditions, not just CICO. I'm eating LCHF/keto (and was in "optimal ketosis" for a short time) because it's the best regimen I've found to reach my goals of weight loss plus reversing T2 diabetes and eliminating dependence on a host of multiple medications for hypertension, gouty and osteoarthritis, dermatological, and autoimmune issues. 
11 Feb 19 by member: Miraculum
Yes! This! You are not alone! 
11 Feb 19 by member: smartilyn
I really wish you'd have gotten on the scale on the 5th, just to verify that one really big drop. Without that one drop, the binge day didn't do as much damage as it appears. No matter, starting back up is the only thing to do. Your positive attitude is what's going to help you win. 
11 Feb 19 by member: PhillySue
@PhillySue, thanks! That makes sense! 
12 Feb 19 by member: Miraculum
Miraculum, have you checked with your doctor to make sure there isn't something else going on? I'm a little worried about you sister. 
12 Feb 19 by member: To145
>>>@To145, you are so kind to worry! Do you have a particular concern?<<< I see my endocrinologist every six months for thyroid scans and blood work (for a small goiter) and his nurse practitioner quarterly (T2 diabetes monitoring and prescriptions). Part of my motivation, now, is to re-educate those two about LCHF/ketoand T2 management.) I see my ophthalmologist quarterly to "keep a close eye" on early, mild, open-angle glaucoma and to check for diabetic retinopathy (still none). My internist prescribes meds for controlled hypertension, gout, and lipids, and sees me for minor illnesses; an orthopedic surgeon keeps me on my toes, literally; and a nephrologist monitors my "normal for age" kidney function and supports my LCHF/keto regimen. I see those guys last three every three-to-six months. I sometimes feel that all I do is fit my other activities around those appointments! 
12 Feb 19 by member: Miraculum
... plus, as a 65-year-old woman, I know that a galaxy (or at least a constellation!) of hormonal interactions govern body weight. I'm staying close to my WOE and trust that this will help. My blood sugars and blood pressure are wonderful! 
12 Feb 19 by member: Miraculum
6-8 glasses of water tomorrow and you will pee it out!! I am exactly the same. Since my journey my wedding rings spin but I have days I legit crave salt and it’s probably because our body needs it especially after upping our water and changing our diets. My body has always swelled in my ankles and hands. 
12 Feb 19 by member: jcmama777
@jcmama777, dittoes on the chronic peripheral edema. I stopped consuming the extra sodium on Sunday and increased my normal 64 ounces of water a day to 80 ounces as of Monday. Only now are my feet beginning to assume their "normally abnormal" look. (My right foot is more deformed post-op than my left; at least I still have all my toes!) I think, at my age, my body takes more time to recover. 
12 Feb 19 by member: Miraculum
I was started on hctz a few years ago because I just swell. Like total pitting edema. I still take it daily and upping my water has for sure helped. We seem to hold on to sodium.  
12 Feb 19 by member: jcmama777
@jcmama777, I was on HCTZ years ago but, once I was diagnosed with gout, it was contraindicated. I take lisinopril for htn and carvedilol for *very* early heart failure. Oh yeah! I have a cardiologist, too! 
12 Feb 19 by member: Miraculum


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