Aligoal's Journal, 29 August 2017

Yeah, easy enough to set meal times, sit down, and focus, but HOW do you not think about food. I dream about food. Especially think about food when I am hungry, planning meals, shopping, cooking, etc. Oh, maybe on optifast you have set meals and just pay for eats without all the fuss and muss.  

I must say I was amused when she said this. I thought to myself - ah so she is into mind control as well!! The first few days were hard. But then it got easier. It is much easier having a sachet than having to shop and think about what to eat (I just choose which flavour and which salad...) I have been helped enormously by having a clinical nurse adjust my insulin levels almost daily so the more weight I lose the less insulin I have and not going sugar low from too much insulin seems to help stop starvingly-I-will-kill-someone-if-I-don't-eat-now feelings. There have been some occasions where I just had to have jelly beans because I was so blood glucose low and it was hard to stop - but somehow I did and for some unknown reason it seemed just as easy to keep going with optifast rather than to fall off the wagon. And I am finding that I am thinking about food but less and less. And that is surprising. I do treat myself to an extra salad. I cheat by having pre prepared salads -that are Greek or Caesar (because they are preprepared they skimp on the extra ingredients so its not much more than a green salad. I go to coffee shops and have exotic black tea. This sounds revoltingly smug and self satisfied - but it is the first time in years of trying (including before with optifast) that it seems to be working easily. Not sure what is different - maybe she does have mind control!