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It's time for accountability. I have been allowing bad habits to creep back into my life. So the pounds are creeping back on -- about 1 lb per week over the last 15 weeks.
I've deliberately avoided FS because I feel ashamed and I'm making excuses for eating whatever I want. My workload has been very heavy and putting the house up for sale has put me in a time crunch. We've had a lot of house showings, which is a good thing, but it takes me about an hour and a half to hide my "office" to make the bedroom look like a bedroom -- and hide my pets and their paraphernalia, then sparkle-clean everything. We're doing more takeout eating so it's easier to keep the kitchen clean at a moment's notice. But we could be eating salad in a bag instead of chicken nuggets. We have a cupcake shop and an ice cream shop next door to each other in our neighborhood, and we've been spending way too much time running down there for treats too.
Though I've let the sweet treats and bread sneak back in, I still have not succumbed to sugary sodas, coffee & caffeine, and sweet tea. At least there's that. Also, I have still been walking every day, mostly twice a day, although I started to make excuses about how tired I was yesterday and cut my walks very short. That's a very bad trend. So I got up this morning and took my dog on the long walk up the mountain road to make up for it. It's a gorgeous spring day, so it was a treat.
I'm going to make a commitment to start recording what I eat again. That's the only way to get in control. I have several things to motivate me. Maybe it's the wrong order of importance, but this is how it goes:
#1- I don't want my daughter to see me weighing 30 pounds more than I did the last time I saw her at Christmas. I plan to visit her in May, or she may be coming here in 6 weeks.
#2 - I don't want to feel tired and bloated. Eating carbs saps my energy. I took a nap on the sofa yesterday and I haven't done that in months.
#3 - I don't want my new clothes to feel so tight. I don't have the money to go clothes shopping again.
I wish I could say that I care what my hubby thinks about my appearance and that it influences my will to do better, but we're past that point. I feel the need to write about our issues, but maybe not publicly. He's a really kindhearted person, but I wish he would get on board with better habits and not encourage the indulging.
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166.0 lb
Lost so far: 46.0 lb.
Still to go: 16.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 25 March 2012:
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1417 kcal
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Fat: 69.08g | Prot: 56.70g | Carb: 156.48g.
Breakfast: cherries, cranberry green tea, apple, whole foods granola, Quick Oatmeal (1 or 3 Minutes). Lunch: cashews, coconut, fage cherry yogurt. Dinner: grapes, annie's naturals dressing, spinach, steak. Snacks/Other: Extra Dark Chocolate 85% Cocoa, Brown Cow Junior, dried cherries, cashews, banana. more...
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gaining 0.8 lb a week
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