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Errrrrrrrrrrr. I had a goal of being out of the 200s by today, but I still have about 4 pounds to go. I only lost 1.5 pounds this week. I have been working my fanny off. I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong, but all I can think is that maybe I'm not eating enough. So, I'm going to eat a few hundred more calories on the days that I bust my butt in the gym.
I am very discouraged today. I know this feeling will pass. I haven't lost my focus, and I have every intention of losing this weight. I just wish there was more (or less) to show for all my hard work. I also wish that I could get "credit" for not indulging in all the things that I used to eat. For example, I used to eat all the time from the vending machine at work. I haven't eaten anything from it in well over a month. I snack on low-carb yogurt and almonds instead. Also, everyone is always bringing in goodies to work. It would be nothing for me to eat for 8 hours straight, consuming THOUSANDS of calories. So, if I were making weight loss laws, I would totally make not eating sweets a way to burn more calories. Alas, I can not change the way my body loses weight. bleh.
On a side note, I went to the mall to try on some jeans. I bought a pair of size 18 American Eagle jeans. I wanted to ask the sales associate if maybe the jeans had been mislabeled and they were really size 16. I didn't. I already knew the size was right. I'm just enormous. At least I have another guage to determine how much weight I've lost, especially since I'm clearly gaining muscle and losing fat (since the scale isn't budging very much).
So, maybe next week I'll be out of the 200s for EVER! I already feel more motivated just from typing this journal entry.
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