kickingcarbs's Journal, 13 June 2022

Time to be honest with myself. I have not been focusing on what I’ve been eating. I kept promising myself I would get back on track but I haven’t. I’ve gained 12 lbs back and it’s time to own it. I want to be a healthier mother for her and I want to hit my goal weight by Christmas. At this rate I’m going to have to bust a$$ to get there. I can not keep letting other people stress me to the point of coping with food. I need to own the fact that I’m the one that buys it and I’m also the one that puts it in my mouth. I have an addiction to the feel good feeling we get from eating comfort foods and the sugar high I get from candy and sweets. I need to do better and stop self sabotaging. I know what to do and I’ve already lost so much. Time to stop being my biggest bully and start being my own best friend. I can do this, I will do this and I’ve already done this. Lead by example not by defeat.

296.0 lb Lost so far: 141.0 lb.    Still to go: 46.0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.