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December was quite the month for me. There was a crisis, a collision, a calamity and a cold all before Christmas. My eating seems to keep pace with the stress levels. I could feel the weight piling onto my body. On New Year’s Day, fearing the worst, I stepped on the scale. There it was: Two Oh Three! Yikes! At first there was dismay and disappointment in myself for getting back up over the 200 lb mark, but then I thought about how I was expecting it to be much worse. I gained 7 lbs between Thanksgiving and the New Year when I was fully expecting to see a gain of 10+ so clearly I was not as out of control as I thought. Also, I was still 15 lbs lighter than my weigh in on New Year’s 2017. I gave it some more thought and realized that I have been weighing in at the beginning of each year for 35 years now. In all that time I could only think of 2-3 times that I was under 200 lbs and that was back in the 80’s. There were about 6 times that I was around this same weight. The rest of that time I was heavier, sometimes much heavier. I decided that I am done with living with food addiction. I know it’s going to take a lot to overcome the damage to my brain and body, but I’m throwing myself into the challenge. After weighing in I paid for Chef AJ’s Ultimate Weight Loss plan and I signed up for Chef Katie Mae’s online 8 week cooking modules. I’ve spent this week getting ready, and mostly working the plan. I have my food journal and I am heading out for a walk with my husband shortly. I feel hopeful and excited but also terrified by the sheer magnitude of what I’m undertaking. I’ve had some practice the past year or so ridding my diet of Sugar and Flour but those two things alone haven’t been enough to undo the damage to my neural wiring from decades of addiction to processed foods. I’ll be checking in as I go through the program.
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202.6 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 1.0 lb a week
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