madaboutmoose's Journal, 26 April 2012

Early morning here at the empty office due to car-pooling with the hubby. I love it here when no one else is here.

Our weather has shifted to rain. The creeks, lakes, rivers and flat lands are brimming with water. Fortunately it was not raining when we had to walk to our car this morning. That was nice.

Yesterday was a tough day. A decision about placement was made for a set of twins I have worked wtih since birth (who are now almost 3 1/2 years old) and have lived with the same foster family (who wants to adopt them). The decision was made to place them with their maternal grandparents. These foster parents ARE these kids parents. While I can understand why the grandparents want them they have not been very involved in their lives and I am not happy with the decision that was made. In my opinion it is not the right decision for the kids. It is so frustrating to me that adults do not put the needs of kids first.

Fortunately though I kept myself from diving into a vat of chocolate over my distress. I wanted to. But I didn't.

Today I have just one visit scheduled (an easy one) and an appointment with my hairdresser to get my hair spruced up. YAY!!! That always makes me feel brighter.

Another dip in the scale this morning too ... which was nice to see. I'm 5 lbs away from being under 200 again. I often promise myself I won't let my weight get over 200 and yet several times now I've had to eat my words. Fortunately I did not gain a massive quantity ... not even up to my fatsecret start several years ago. I must remind myself that is progress. A constant reminder that this is a never-ending journey. Perhaps there is hope that I can wear more of my summer clothes?!! Wouldn't that be grand!!??!!

I best take advantage of this quiet time to get some paperwork done here without the constant distractions of other conversations and noise. Continuing to practice kindness towards myself. I am fallible and I must remind myself to accept my fallibility and be at peace with less than perfection.

Take care today. Be good to yourselves. We are worth the effort and worth the kindness. It is the most efficient way to take care of ourselves. Self-flagellation isn't really all that effective.

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947 kcal

Fat: 38.96g | Prot: 132.58g | Carb: 16.28g.   Breakfast: Sliced Hickory Smoked Boneless Ham, Egg, Reduced Fat Mexican 4 Cheese Shredded Cheese. Lunch: Chicken Breast Meat (Broilers or Fryers) , Cottage Cheese (Lowfat 2% Milkfat) , Pico De Gallo (Mild), Boiled Egg. Dinner: Tomatoes, Cottage Cheese (Nonfat), Ground Beef (95% Lean / 5% Fat). Snacks/Other: Boneless Chicken Breast Fillets. more...

2660 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Driving - 1 hour, Resting - 8 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Desk Work - 7 hours. more...