madaboutmoose's Journal, 09 September 2011

Fabulous!! It is Friday!!

I am actively practicing a positive mindset and it is good. I had a challenge this morning as I did step on the scale and was not pleased with the number. A wonderful opportunity to correct my thinking, my frame of mind, my internal dialouge. While I did note the number on my written log at home I did not record it here because I am only recording losses. I spent the morning, as I did my typical routine, replacing those unkind thoughts with positive affirmations. On our way to work this morning I shared my experience with my husband. You are not going to believe what happened!!

He shut off the radio. Asked me to put my seat back a notch, close my eyes, and guided me through visualizing how I feel at 180!! We talked all the way to work, about what we are learning about ourselves, about what our plans are for the future, about replacing our "unkind" self talk with "kind" self talk. Wow.

It is a very interesting process ... this journey of life. There are so many things I learned on the journey down to 180 before that are coming back into my mind. Things I stopped doing. Things I stopped thinking. I stopped being kind to myself. I stopped believing in myself. I gave myself over to doubt, self flagellation, mindlessness.

It is definitely work but it is work that energizes me, makes me smile, fuels me. It crosses every part of my life, not just weight. I knew that before. I let myself forget. Sometimes a thought sneaks in there that I am crazy to think that thinking differently can have an impact but I KNOW that I am not crazy. I understand enough about physiology, neurology, how our brains work that this isn't just a bunch of mumbo jumbo. I KNOW that how we think, feel, act has a major impact on health, wellness, success, satisfaction, contentedness, emotional well-being, and on and on and on. So, when those "doubts" surface I am actively telling them to hush and continuing on.

I weigh 180 lbs.
I earn $100,000 a year.
I possess the finances to do random acts of kindness for others.
I crave healthy foods.
I am satisfied with healthy foods.
I feed my body's hunger.
I like myself.
I like the way I look.
I am comfortably in my body.
I am financially independent.
I possess the resources to meet my financial needs.
I am smart.
I am organized.
People pay me for my expertise.
I am confident about my abilities.
I am long and lean.
I am strong and tall.
I am organized.
I am committed.
I am desirable.
I am attractive.
I am kind to myself.
I take care of myself.
I have waiting lists for my workshops.
Health and harmony reign throughout my mind and my body.
I like my body.
I am able to wear all the clothes in my closet.
Some of the clothes in my closet are too big for me.
I sleep well.
I am a non-smoker.
I manage my finances well.

Life is good. Friday came quickly this week and I am excited about the weekend. We are going to try to find something "new" to do this weekend. Break out of our routine. I don't know what it will be but I know we will have fun. Maybe we'll find an Audi dealership and test drive the car we "own." Bob has in mind a partcular Audi that he is visualizing us on a road trip in. I can't remember the model but I have seen it and it is beautiful. Who knows ... but I am excited about what ever it is we will do.

I only have one visit today. Need to schedule in a couple others as well for next week. I'm fairly caught up here with paperwork so we'll see what the day presents. It is warm here ... supposed to be in the 90's today and through the weekend. So strange that "summer" has arrived here in September. Even the heat hasn't been bothering me. I'm not really a "heat" lover unless I am in a tropical location. Amazing.

I am grateful, once again, that Steve "passed it forward," that he and Cathy found each other, and that I personally benefit from their relationship.

I am grateful for being able to chat with more than one person at a time on facebook and that several of my fatsecret buddies have become my facebook friends!

I am grateful for my ability to think, for my mind.

I am grateful for my job.

I am grateful for the excitement I feel when I permit myself to feel and think positively.

I am grateful for every stretch mark, jiggle, inch of skin, muscle, bone, joint, and organ in my body.

I am grateful for this place, my buddies who visit my thoughts, for the "conversations" I have ... for the connections here.

Deep breath. Truly the joy IS in the journey. There are bumps, unexpected and unplanned for events, and what appear to be detours along the way ... but it is the journey that contains the joy, NOT the destination. And, I will never be "done" and that is not a bad thing, it is a good thing!!!

Thanks for listening ... thanks for being here. May you each find something joyful in your life today. Dare to believe you are worth it. Dare to visualize what it is you "want" even if you currently do not think it is possible. Dare to live.

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1809 kcal

Fat: 48.86g | Prot: 121.00g | Carb: 207.47g.   Breakfast: Pineapple, Nonfat Plain Greek Yogurt, Barleans Flax Oil, Vanilla Almond Milk, banana, Body Fortress Whey Protein Powder. Lunch: chicken breast meat, Cottage Cheese. Dinner: craisins, apple, shrimp, romaine lettuce, english cucumber, Feta, cheese, Newman's Own Sesame Ginger, red onion, celery. Snacks/Other: Rold Gold Cinnamon Pretzels, larabar cashew cookie mini, Luna Protein. more...

3104 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Desk Work - 8 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 7 hours and 25 minutes, Elliptical - 35 minutes. more...