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Its Wednesday
Already?!
And its the 15th of April. We're half way through april? WHAT?
Wow, is it just me, or does time seem to be just FLLLLYYYYIINNNGGGGGGG by?
On one hand I am relieved. More time passed= closer to summer, and closer to things changing.
On the other hand, I feel like time is just whisking past me and I am getting left behind. I feel like I am getting nowhere; like I am running, running and running but suddenly realize that I am standing still as everything just passes me up. Arrrrggghhh!
Well, anyways, no use stressing over it. I have done enough stressing. In fact, I have had so much stress in the past few months that guess what happened? I had a capillary vein burst in my cheek! YEAH! I can imagine your face as your reading this right now... that was my reaction, too.
Went to the dermatologist and she took care of it. It was painful, but all worth it. And the doctor did it for free (this lady was an angel, and I am totally sending good karma vibes her way).
But anyways, a lot was going through my head as I walked out of the doctor's office. More reinforced positive self-talk, if you will.
The last two days havent been significantly less stressful, but I have been able to deal with the stress so much better because I have gotten my eating semi-back on track. I feel so much calmer, better and have more energy, so I am able to react to everything appropriately, instead of feeling apathetic and lethargic like I did over the weekend.
I am going to try as hard as I can to just get along with my mom, ignore her ridiculous comments about my eating/body, and when possible, i will speak up so that I can make peace with her.
Well, I hope that plan works.
I want to be a better person all-around. More specifically a calmer and happier person.
Eating healthfully + exercising = losing weight, which definitely make me happy.
Diet Calendar Entries for 15 April 2009:
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1443 kcal
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Fat: 19.54g | Prot: 82.07g | Carb: 241.59g.
Breakfast: honey, GNC protein powder, minute maid orange juice, mango, pineapple. Lunch: baby carrots, spinach, double fiber english muffin, hormel chicken breast, knudsen cottage cheese, tomato. Dinner: white beans, kidney beans, refried beans, lean ground turkey, cheese, all bran crackers. Snacks/Other: odwalla berries gomega, ready pac, broccoli, cauliflower, yogurt, apple. more...
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2058 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Standing - 20 minutes, Driving - 1 hour, Desk Work - 2 hours, Sitting - 1 hour, Shopping - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 10 hours and 40 minutes. more...
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 Comments
Yes, I agree about time just going so fast. Your dermatologist was an angel. I hope you send her a thank you card. How sweet. You seem to be doing really well with your mindset regarding food and I hope you can make peace with your mother. Take care of you.
15 Apr 09 by member: WECANDOTHIS
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You read my mind! lol I picked up a cute one on the way home and I will give it to her when i have a follow up at the end of the month :] thanks for commenting and your support
15 Apr 09 by member: girlygirlatheart
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I'm glad you are finding some rhythm with the stress!! It will ALWAYS be there, in one form or another. Some days there appears to be less, some days there is more. The thing is ... it doesn't have to RULE us!!! So wonderful the doctor was able to fix you!!! And so kind as well. I hope you find a rhythm you can live with, with your mom. I know, somewhere deep down inside, is a woman who truly loves you ... unfortunate it doesn't always present itself in a kind way. You are a treasure ... treasure yourself today!!!
16 Apr 09 by member: madaboutmoose
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I am totally with you there about being so stressed! Great job on feeling better lately though! Keep up the great attitude!
16 Apr 09 by member: Starladesiree
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Did you get my message? : ) Hope it helps.
16 Apr 09 by member: Howitzerwife
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Ah, the joys of stress.... note the sarcasm dripping from my every pore. I have anxiety attacks. They have been my buddy for a log time. Especially when my mom got sick, then died. YAY! I was so thrilled. NOT!! I finally came to the realization last year that it wasn't worth it. I was letting my stress just kill me and I'd decided a long time ago suicide wasn't cool, so wasn't I just killing myself a different way? Kinda funky way to look at it, but when you wake up having a heart attack 4-6 times a week you view things differently. SO- I started paying attention to the triggers and avoiding things/people that send me over the edge. I also play a lot of violent video games- HAHA! (good for venting, promise!) I've also got some great friends who helped me out a lot with good support. When I was younger a good therapist was helpful, but I don't have the insurance or money now. There is no one answer for relieving stress- you're already working out and that's one of the best ones. I implement the count to 10 method a lot when talking to people when I start to freak out. Sounds ineffective, but it works. It's like meditation, really. Sometimes I concentrate on a pleasant memory... etc etc. Positive self talk is always a good, healing thing. Especially when it seems like nothing around you is positive. If you can master that- you'll be doing really great. Stress never really goes away, like Madaboutmoose said, but you can learn to control how you react to it. It's a tough lesson- one that a lot of people don't master. Now, don't go breaking any more capillaries!! That would have scared the holy-moly-behesus out of me. Imma send some good Karma that Doctors way as well, people who help people out, ROCK!
18 Apr 09 by member: QuirkyNat
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love it...good job...great attitude...
18 Apr 09 by member: veggies yuk
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