nino66's Journal, 28 June 2010

Well I havn't been around much the last few weeks. I know my last journal entry said alot about what has been going on. I went two weekends ago to Indy to our State Convention and had a great time. Our auxiliary one multiple awards for our hard work over the past year. I can't wait until our next meeting to give the news to my ladies. My husband's aunt did pass away that weekend. So I just decided the heck with it. I have been so stressed out and my food choices were very limited. Finances are very limited right now so if I had the choice of eating the free food that was offered or spending money I opted to eat what was available. Plus at the funeral there was nothing atkins friendly available. So I had 4 days of not worrying about what I ate. I gained 2 lbs. but I have already lost those and 2 more. I had been on a plateu for so long it was getting really frustrating. I am thinking that maybe going off a few days has triggered my body into losing again. At least I am hoping. I even had a few alcoholic drinks this weekend and still lost. I have 5 days until my neices wedding so I hope I lose a few more by then. The next couple weeks are going to be hard for this WOE. I am making my neice's wedding cake. I'm not too worried about that because I am not much of a cake eater anyway. I just like to decorate them. Then there's the reception. I have alot of family coming in from out of town and they are staying all week until the next weekend which is our family reunion. I have a huge family. 7 sisters and 2 brothers, plus all the neices and nephews, great neices and nephews, ect. We are all very close. There will be alot of food and alcohol throughout both weekends. I am not going to stress out about it. I am going to stick to it as much as possible. But if I want to eat off the program I will. I am not going to ruin the fun by worrying and stressing about it. I have too many other stresses in my life to stress about that. I am just going to get through the next couple of weeks and then I'll get back on track after that. But I am going stick to it as close as I can. I know I will get back on track because I feel better and look better. AND... I saw a picture of me from this past fall yesterday and I looked awful. It is in a scrap book for our district president from this past year. She was at our post and I was so embarrased. I asked my sister if I really looked like that. My stomach was huge and I had no neck!!!! I think I was a little bloated because this was from before my gallbladder surgery. I was really sick and my upper stomach was really bloated. But still. OMG!!! That is inspiration enough to stay with this WOE.

We went last week to the orthopedic dr. for my hubby. It wasn't all that great of news. He has huge bone spurs in his hip. The dr. said he thinks this is as much of the problem as the back is. They went ahead and scheduled him for the injection in his back for the end of July hoping that the heart dr. will release him on July 9th. This will give him time to get the meds out of his system if he is released or cancel the procedure if he is not release. Then they will see how much relief he gets and probably inject his hip. We asked what they would do about the bone spurs and he said that there is nothing to do. The disease hubby has produces all this extra bone. His hips are covered with layers and layers of extra bone. On his x-ray his hips are swirled looking like marble. The dr. said if they did surgery and removed the bone spurs this disease will only reproduce more bone and it would come back way worse than it already is. So that is discouraging because we know it will never get better and actually will get worse. But the dr. is very optimistic that the injections will help with the pain and he might even get back to work.

Today we go to the retina specialist to see what they are going to do about his eye. Hopefully it will be able to be fixed easily.

I have been feeling better the past few days. I had a great weekend and me and hubby are trying to get along better. With so much stress sometimes you just reach a breaking point. I think that is where I was the past couple of weeks. I am going to try to keep it together and be positive. At least I have control over this WOE. I will do my best and if I mess up I'll just start over.

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1458 kcal

Fat: 106.49g | Prot: 95.21g | Carb: 30.82g.   Breakfast: green onion, eggs, beef steak. Lunch: ranch dressing, brocolli, tomato, yellow pepper, cheddar cheese, sunflower seeds, lettuce, spinach. Dinner: chicken, kraft mayo, ranch, mozzarella, cucumber, tomato, lettuce. Snacks/Other: heavy cream, pork rind. more...