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Okay. That was frustrating. I was in the middle of writing and also on hold for my mortgage company. Problems accessing my account. They asked me to close my browser and open a new one and without even thinking ... there went my journal. DRAT.
Everything went well yesterday for hubby. It was a long day ... but all is well. A HUGE stone that we now have color pictures of, suitable for framing!!! Follow up visit in 2 weeks. Dr. is recommending another surgery. Might as well support the medical industry with our hard earned dollars. We both wonder how long that stone has been haunting him. He says he already feels differently.
Amazingly I did well with eating yesterday. Had a couple bites of hubby's burrito on the way home and a sliver of the cake I had for him later in the evening and a HUGE iced skinny coffee from Starbucks and still the scale showed me 214 this morning. That was motivating. I know I need to just stick with it and the weight will come off again. It is amazing, once I start to gain I quickly slip into "what's the point" mode ... and begin to think all those old negative thoughts like "I'm destined to be fat" "my body likes being over 200" "I can't lose weight" and much more. I believe it is neurological. They say that neurons that fire together wire together. I have spent a large portion of my life firing the wrong neurons together. Once I begin to let them fire again they take off like fireworks on the 4th of July.
Recently my mom and I went through all our old family slides to see what we had. There were so many pictures of me as a young girl, from birth to probably 6 or 7 years old. Oh my ... I was NOT FAT!!! Here was this healthy, bright, little girl ... and all these years I have felt like I have "always" been fat. It was interesting.
So today hubby is going to take it easy and I am going to continue the grant review I contracted to complete. Another hot day here in the northwest. It was 70 degrees at 5 am which is unheard of around here. Thunder and lightening last night ... I'm so ready for the 80's (temperature not decade) to return. I may or may not do Pilates ... we'll see. It would probably feel good to stretch. Sitting at the computer tends to give me a sore back.
Take care friends. Thanks for sticking with me.
Diet Calendar Entries for 13 July 2012:
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1535 kcal
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Fat: 61.36g | Prot: 150.53g | Carb: 64.77g.
Breakfast: Egg, White American Cheese, Sliced Hickory Smoked Boneless Ham. Lunch: Boiled Egg, Chicken Breast Meat (Broilers or Fryers) , Pico De Gallo (Mild), Cottage Cheese (Lowfat 2% Milkfat). Dinner: Reduced Fat Mexican 4 Cheese Shredded Cheese, Roasted Broiled or Baked Chicken Breast (Skin Not Eaten), Original Iceberg Garden Salad (Zip), Lite Bleu Cheese Dressing & Dip. Snacks/Other: Bud Light Lime-a-Rita, Sugar Free Popsicles. more...
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2772 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Resting - 8 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Desk Work - 8 hours. more...
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Oh no, your poor hub! Glad thats taken care of and hope he recovers well and fast. Good job on the eating, even more when its so tempting. Oh man, not those negative thoughts again huh? You know I believe they come along w/ the bad foods so keep them clean and the feelings will purify too! hang in there Moose, I know its difficult at times. The pics from your past must have been inspirational, hopefuly it woke up that younger you and will shine thru again ;)
13 Jul 12 by member: cindyshine
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13 Jul 12 by member: madaboutmoose
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Hey gril..so glad thas over with for your DH..and I know the feeling of whats the use..but we have to keep our minds set...its hard with every day life as well you know...I'm rooting for you and me both..Lets get down to business of taking care of us..:O)
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Absolutely Bren ... I'm with you!!
13 Jul 12 by member: madaboutmoose
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I know all about that whats the point spot... I can spend weeks there. So glad yu are back. Just being here means that you are taking steps in the right direction. Glad everything went well at the hospital!!! what a relief!!!!!! I can only imagine how stressful that was! You did great not overeating!! hope it will be a good weekend for you two : )
13 Jul 12 by member: sharonfriz
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Yesterday was easier than today. Hubby is experiencing "leakage" and is clearly worried he'll spend the rest of his life "pissing in a bag" (clearly his words not mine). And it is HOT. I'm doing my best to remind him it is only day one after surgery and encourage him. I've still done well with eating but no Pilates today. Tomorrow I'll do the whole DVD again, in the morning when it is a bit cooler. I have sugar-free popsicles and fudsicles to eat and have been drinking water like crazy. However I am still thirsty. Wish I had a cold beer here!!
13 Jul 12 by member: madaboutmoose
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Fire up those "I CAN DO THIS" neurons... and stay focused. You have two weeks to nurse hubby along (which I am so glad he is doing well) and you can use those same two weeks as a motivator for you!!! Get that ball rolling again, and you'll be seeing some relief on that downward trend soon. Much Love.
14 Jul 12 by member: jsfantome
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I am happy that your hubby is feeling better already. I think we all can relate to trying and trying and not getting anywhere and feeling why bother. We want results, we want to see something changing on that scale. This time I am trying to pay close attention to the changes that aren't reflected on the scale and I am finding that they can be very rewarding too. Those subtle changes in how our clothes go on, zip or button up and the differences in the way our body looks. Try focusing on the little changes and keep it up the other changes will follow. I am counting on it. Typing on iPad today and this is rough. Hope you had a great night Carol.
14 Jul 12 by member: chattycathy1955
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So glad your husband is better, Carol. You're such a good wife to have a cake for him when he got back. Good job on your DVDs and the water. As far as your weight loss, Carol, you are doing it. You're accountable and conscious of your decisions and you're taking action. The weight WILL come off.
14 Jul 12 by member: Helewis
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