AWKWARDLOVIN's Journal, 29 September 2021

today I felt the scale bow beneath my feet. I don't feel any better than how I did yesterday and had a really hard day trying to do this. I tried to do a cleanse today but failed halfway to eat macaroni and cheese and tri tip. I then proceeded to cry and cry and even punch my leg until it was bruised up. I can't cope being in this body I hate so much. I want to have love and be loved too. I can't stand this. I want to throw up so much. I want to cut my fat out. I want to stop being a hideous ugly whale that no one feels any way about. I want to be beautiful too

278.0 lb Lost so far: 2.0 lb.    Still to go: 158.0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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1658 kcal

Fat: 56.27g | Prot: 97.55g | Carb: 227.00g.   Breakfast: Urban Remedy Slender Greens, Urban Remedy Slender Greens. Lunch: Pressed Juicery Mango Tumeric Lemonade, Urban Remedy Slender Greens. Dinner: Buckhorn Grill Corn Bread Muffin, Beef Bottom Sirloin (Tri-Tip Roast, Trimmed to 0" Fat) , Kraft Macaroni & Cheese with Roasted Chicken & Broccoli . Snacks/Other: Frito-Lay Sunflower Seeds in Shell. more...

3493 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Squats (Legs) - 9 minutes, Hula Hoop - 20 minutes, Resting - 23 hours and 31 minutes. more...