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I wish I was one of those people who can't eat when they're stressed! I would lose all my weight in no time at all! My daughter is going through a really hard time right now, and I'm carrying the weight of it, too. She and my two grandchildren are looking at becoming homeless, as my daughter's boyfriend (3-year-old grandson's dad) is threatening to give her 30 days to GET OUT.
He is verbally and emotionally abusive, and she has virtually NO self-image anymore. I just took them drinking water and ginger ale because he just went to the store and intentionally did NOT get them because my daughter had said they needed them. Then, he actually took all the food he bought and LOCKED it in the garage where they can't get to it! He actually brought in toilet paper, paper towels and milk, and told them not to touch them!
My daughter is trying to get public housing, but there is a LONG waiting list. No matter WHAT happens, it will continue to be a stress for me. If she moves out, she will have to get a full-time job, and I'll have to watch the little one all the time.
I went over there two days this week and helped her clean to try to appease him. We worked our butts off, and he still was not happy -- in fact, he was MAD that he found out I helped her! She doesn't have a vacuum, or a mop, or Windex, or paper towels, yet she is supposed to have an immaculate house. No, she's not the BEST housekeeper in the world, but we had it looking REALLY good, and he still complains!
She's depressed! She also has a broken tooth which is giving her a lot of pain, and both kids have been sick this week and she's had to take care of them. I'm doing what I can to help. My knees have been KILLING me, but I took a pain pill to allow me to be able to help her. Yesterday, I did a LOT of stuff here at home, but refused to take another pill because I don't want to get addicted to them (Hydrocodone). At least it allowed me to help her those two days!
Went to bed shortly after 8pm. Now, it's after midnight. Have taken 10mg Ambien, a Rozerem (sleep aid) and an anxiety pill (over a 4-hour period) and still I'm awake. Just got up and had a cup of Sleepytime Tea and one piece of toast with butter and peanut butter on it. Usually I'm a person who escapes to sleep when I am stressed or depressed. Now, sleep escapes ME!
Did some praying about the family situations and my out-of-control eating. Who knows, maybe my miracle-working God will surprise me in the morning with renewed resolve, peace and victory! He's done things like this before, and I know He CAN do it again. The good thing is, He can work while I'm sound asleep - so I'm going to take Him up on that deal and crawl back into the bed.
Night, all. May God bless each of you in your struggles and help you to rise above them triumphantly!
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