Nothing like 10 days of inactivity to show how motivated I've been 8). Oof.
I took about a week and a half off from working out. I still am active at my job, but money has been beyond tight and I didn't have very much available to eat for that week, so I thought it best to just chill out. I also had a weird bout of vertigo? It seems to be calming down now - but I'm hoping it doesn't come back when I start working out again. I have never had it before. I felt like I was on a boat constantly.
I really just want to pay someone to do my grocery shopping and make all of my food for me. I know that I over complicate things - but it's just in my blood. I have never had a healthy relationship with food. I used to not eat in order to deal with anxiety - and now I overeat and eat things that are terrible for me in order to deal with anxiety. I've never just eaten food because my body was supposed to have it.
My body does look a little different - but I'm not sure if it really does or if I have just been more accepting of it lately? Seeing all of the different body types all day at the gym actually has done wonders for my self esteem. I see women who look like me and they aren't disgusting, and that makes me feel like I'm normal.
I feel like this is the best progression of things. I feel better about the way I look now, and so this is going to be less for my outer appearance and more because I just want to be strong. I want to be in control of my body. I feel like it's time for that in my life.
My bod vs. goals. Not too far off right....😂😂😂
