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Leptin Reset. Day 5 of 28 to 42 days.
Scale down 4 tenths of a lb. today to 206. Still higher than my last weigh in here on FS. Still waiting to record a "new" low.
I seem to be doing okay. It is interesting. The time elapsed between breakfast and lunch is about 7 hours and I am hungry at about 7 hours but not before. Between lunch and dinner though is a different story. I'm pretty much famished by 4:30 pm. I typically eat lunch between 11:30 and 12:30. I am eating a hearty dinner so I am not tempted to "snack" in the evening. I am wondering if others experienced the same (those of you attempting this leptin reset thingy). I'm not too worried about it ... because this week the scale has been declining and I have not been snacking between meals. I seem to remember Dr. Kruse saying at some point you might not even be hungry for or want dinner. Quite frankly I find that difficult to imagine!! LOL!!!
More conversation yesterday with hub about his struggles with depression and anxiety. He's been having a rough time ... nearly every evening. He does fine during the day at work then at home ... not so good. I know I am a mental health professional but really ... not at home. I suspect he needs a medication change. I also suspect the impact of the cancer treatment on his whole physiology may be contributing to his symptoms. It is not normal for a man's testosterone to be so low for so long. I also suspect there is an element of his cognitive functioning (self-talk) that contributes to the problems. He HATES. Did I emphasize that enough? HATES drugs. He also HATES "introspection" as he calls it. I have encouraged him to see his physician and discuss his concerns. I have also encouraged him to utilize his EAP through work to see someone. He isn't sure what he would gain from seeing a therapist, since he is opposed to "introspection." I shared with him that one of the preferred approaches to anxiety and depressive disorders is a cognitive-behavioral approach. It is up to him. My struggle is to not take it on myself. That is a good trick. A full time job in and of itself!!! Sorry if this is over sharing.
In the meantime ... I am responsible for me. I like myself!! I love my body! I am an expert in my field and people pay me for my expertise. I am organized and efficient. I plan well and follow through. I manage our finances responsibly. I earn $100,000 a year. Our wood shed is full. Our dental needs are met. I am kind to myself. I take care of myself. I am patient. I am persistent. I am determined. I listen carefully to my body's hunger cues and provide it with the right amount of fuel so that my body efficiently burns fat and sheds excess pounds.
And ... I am grateful.
1. Grateful for payday Friday!
2. Grateful for a spruce up for my hair today.
3. Grateful that I'll see our youngest son this weekend (at least I think I will).
4. Grateful no snow has fallen yet!!
5. Grateful for my husband's perception that I am "wonderful" (even if he is slightly delusional!!! LOL!!!)
Kindness, mindfulness, patience, persistence, determination. Remembering continually that my worth is NOT defined by the number on the scale. Remembering continually that I DO feel better when I stay away from certain foods. Remembering that eating is not a solution to any struggle I might be experiencing. Remembering that when I smile, when I take the time to direct my internal dialogue to positive things, when I act "as if" I have more energy and feel better. Holy smokes that is a lot of remembering to do on a Friday for a 50+ year old brain!!!
Today something wonderful WILL happen to me. Today I will continue to practice being kind to myself and I am looking forward to the end of my day!!
May something wonderful happen to each of you today!!
Take care!
Diet Calendar Entries for 28 October 2011:
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1085 kcal
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Fat: 67.88g | Prot: 103.08g | Carb: 8.65g.
Breakfast: pork sausage, coconut oil, eggs, shredded cheese. Lunch: Kosher Dill Sandwich Slices Pickles, chicken breast meat, Cottage Cheese. more...
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2840 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Pilates - 50 minutes, Resting - 7 hours and 10 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Desk Work - 8 hours. more...
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I like this "Holy smokes that is a lot of remembering to do on a Friday for a 50+ year old brain!!! " so true. So much to remember, all the time - be kind to yourself, forgive yourself, be aware of triggers both food and otherwise, be aware you aren't eating that crap anymore. Just say no to "???" fill in the blanks. Boy, its exhausting, isn't it, but its worthwhile most of the time. Enjoy getting your hair done, enjoy seeing your son. Hope hubby is 'good' over the week-end. My hubby, in fact most of my 'real' friends aren't into introspection either which makes for a lonely journey at times which is why I am glad of FS, 'cause most of us on here are on an internal journey as well - its about so much more than food. Sorry for the long reply. In short, have a good week-end. Glad you are finding the low carb WOE okay for the short term at least.
28 Oct 11 by member: sarahsmum
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Carol, I find that a lot of people just aren't into introspection...it seems that those of us who are, become more aware of that fact once we open ourselves up to it. I am with Is....thank goodness for FS and for a safe place to do a little soul searching, a place to put things out there and realize we aren't so different after all. Have a great weekend, my sweet, beautiful, smart, 50 something fabulous friend! You deserve it...enjoy your son!
28 Oct 11 by member: ctlss
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I've always wondered how to help someone whoo is depressed and may not recognize it or be motivated to fix it because they are depressed...no easy thing. I am sure you are a wonderful encourager to him. have fun with your son this weekend and no candy- pinky promise!
28 Oct 11 by member: sharonfriz
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Oh that sounds tough, hope you two push through it. Maybe change the setting, add a different activity to the evenings? As for your weight, I am so happy for you! I think your chart would have been so cooler to see a drop from 211 down today.. but thats me! (more to brag about LOL) Have a nice weekend!
28 Oct 11 by member: cindyshine
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I could always post the weights!!! I've thought the same but someone once criticized my weight chart having too many ups and downs so I'm a little sensitive to the issue I guess!! Silly I suppose. That's me. One silly sausage. It is raining like crazy here. It has been cold enough at night we might wake up to the white stuff. In October? YIKES!!! Son not coming. He just told me he is too broke. I sent him $40. Oh well.
28 Oct 11 by member: madaboutmoose
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Aw, sorry about your son and brrr...snow! Its warm here, 91 today! LOL at the scale - I see you adjusted it, cool!
31 Oct 11 by member: cindyshine
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