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13 February 2012
Hello world out there,
So I know my goal seems unrealistic for my height and age. I should be ingesting more food and not be worried about my weight since I'm only 18 years of age and by many standards not 'fat'. I don't want anyone to be worried about me. I don't see myself as fat. But I use to weigh this amount. And I want it back.
You see, I used to be a hardcore cross country and track athlete. I am a runner. I have spent most of my life running. It is the one thing that brings joy to my life and that NO BODY has a say over. I am used to having my life dictated by many people, not to say I haven't had a great life. Because I have truly been blessed in life. I just feel so free when I am running no matter when I run, it could be a high pressure situation and I will still run for the pure ecstasy I get from it. Almost two years ago, when I went to the doctors to check up on my many of bone related problems (scoleosis, tendonitis, shin splints, multiple rolled and sprained ankles, etc). The MRI and CT Scan showed something funny on one of my hips... turns out I had a hairline hip fracture. Doctors advised me not to run, but gave me medicine because my doctor knows what running is to me. I finished my junior year of track, in tons of pain but on top. Record for my school, beat the current years prime competitor. It felt amazing to be on top. However, I was forced to stop running to recover over summer. Now to many that may not sound like torture, but to a girl who has been in training for something her whole life no matter where we were located, it was. Absolute torture. My senior year I was out of shape when cross country season started, my first meet... 20th. I have run varsity since my freshman year in high school. That was my only year I was not top ten, and by the end of the year in cross country AND track, I WAS! More track haha, but I was a freshman you can't blame me. My senior year was like freshman year all over again, but this time I didn't get better I continually got worse... by the end of cross country, I was barely second best. I was being beaten by not only my teammate, but by runners I had beaten for years! Just to last through track I was given cortizone shots in my hip, I was taking so many pills before I ran whether practice or an actual meet my teammates were becoming worried. My running had taken a toll on me and I knew it. I was taking up to 20 pills at a track meet just to control my pain. I was receiving cortizone from two different doctors every other week (which really means I got it once a week). I was managing my pain I kept telling myself, then I was running and forgot to take my medicine and my pain was so bad I feel and injured my knee... I already had tendonitis. But I had to wear a brace, and tape my knee so it wouldn't turn inward when I ran. Sorry for the long story, to shorten this... my coach discovered what I had been doing for months and I was restricted from running at MY LAST district meet. Which means I couldn't make it to regionals and I wouldn't get my last shot at state. Worst feeling ever. But after a lot of insight and anger I realized when I got my next xray if I would have continued running another week I could have broken my hip COMPLETELY. Talk about wake up call...
Okay so there's my back story. I am here because I have recovered after much therapy and much time doing nothing. My hip is completely better, there will always be a chance of it happening again. But I now know my boundaries, not my limits. My limits exceed boundaries to the extreme.
But this is healthy me, technically a sophmore in college, but my first 'real' year being away from home and at a college on my own. After much discussion with my doctorS, yes plural haha I have been cleared to run for my colleges cross country team! :D
I know what you're thinking, this can't be a good idea, blah blah blah. I've heard it with my mom. Trust me. I have. But, if something was your entire life for so long, you wouldn't just give up on it would you? Well I for sure am not! I am going to get back into AMAZING cross country shape and next fall I WILL be a memember of my college's cross country team!
Wish me luck!
Or tell me what you think, if you managed to get through this.
Yours truly,
Overly Passionate.
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13 February 2012
Weigh-in:
134.0 lb
lost so far:
0 lb
still to go:
19.0 lb
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