goingbananas's Journal

a lot has happened since I last logged in.
i've changed jobs
i've moved house
i've got a partner
i've got goals - to have a family and move house - as well as losing weight.

my 'plan' is the same as before: to eat mindfully.
Link 1 and link 2 (from the second link:)
Are you so disgusted right now, that you’re ready to move forward? If this is you, then you’re ready. It’s “your time.” You’re first step is knowing you’re done with the old ways that never worked, with how you’ve treated yourself, etc., and your committed to changing your life. Abstinence from those destructive ways, is success. Once you’re working on new ways, and you’re taking it “day by day,” you won’t go back, because you won’t want to go back. If you’ve struggled in ways that are sickening, you’ll take joy in your new ways. It happened for me. Its been years since I’ve binged. There’s no way I will ever do it again. It’s not even a thought nor a feeling within me. I’ve changed so much, it’s as if I’ve built a new blueprint. I look at today, and I never look back.
i guess what i'm saying is that - to an extent - my diet is the Okinawa one of hara hachi bu (only Westernised to fit my lifestyle).

According to this site it looks like I've lost a few pounds, but I've been eating badly. Far too much fat (cheese) and sugar (liquorice, crisps ...and many more items I can't even recall)
The thing is though, as of last week I was 147lb, but I slid back into eating too much when I wasn't hungry and eating too much fat at that.

I'm now back on the wagon: more fruit, more veg, less fat, less eating-when-not-hungry.

i went a bit nuts yesterday. as a result i knew i was still hungry - but not badly so, i just thought i may not be able to fall asleep...
anyway i was down by two pounds today.
well this morning.
today i've eaten so much uneccessarily.
- cakes that my mother brought for me
- a cabbage dish when i wasn't hungry
- 2 tortilla wraps filled with hummus, onion and tstuff when i wasn't hungry.

i haven't done any exercise. i was so cold i have just had a very warm bath to heat myself up.
now i'm hungry again. hmmm.
i'm going to have a melon. so the day will be all that, plus stewed apple and some rosehip tea. lets see what tomorrow brings!