I am 40 years old I have 6 children ageing from 20-2 I work part time as a care assistant in a dementia home and also I am doing a degree at university. On new years eve 2010 i weighed over 20 stone. August 2013 I got married and weighed in at under 13 stone. Since that day I have seemed to be a little lost life is extremely hectic i am working, looking after a big family and studying for a degree 60 miles away from my home so am a commuter daily. Whilst on placement I have t stay away from my husband and children through the week to return home at weekends to do my other job to provide for my family. (Most people will now be saying make hubby work) hubby cant work other that looking after 4 kids under 6 (2 year old twins) our son is very hard work and needs consistency. This week in the heat of the moment he said that he wishes we never got married because before I could get in my dress i was happy and striving to get thinner now I have lost the motivation and cant seem to get it back.