I am struggling with weight for over a decade and I'm only 32. I was always curvy but only gained weight starting in college. My mom was really heavy and I learned bad habits. Both of my parents had diabetes and I don't want to follow suit.

I'm very unhappy and disappointed with myself. I don't remember this happening, gaining so much weight. I have at least a hundred pounds to lose.

I have a boyfriend of four years and refuse to consider marriage before losing weight. It feels impossible, I'm impatient and can't imagine a life without food.