|Start Weight:||(12 Jul 07) 278.0 lb|
|Current Weight:||(13 Jul 07) 276.0 lb|
|Goal Weight:||150.0 lb|
My life is a constant diet, or cheating on it. I wake up either thinking am I still on my diet or did I cheat yesterday? I lost over 100 lbs twice, the first time I was down to 140 and was thrilled to be able to shop in reg clothes sections, but that was back in 1978-79, clothes werent in such big selections. But I was the happiest I ever was. Got a job in a fast food restaurant, got married, had kids and "wham!", it was all back, with more. Got divorsed, lost alot of weight again, bout the same amount, but since I was heavier, i only got down to 190, still I got attention from men, but no one special. So I gained it back, and more. I went to 330, I have lost back down to 270 recently, but Im getting tired of dieting again and have gained about 8lbs back. Im desperately trying to hang on. Im traveling to Canada on Aug 12 this year to meet a very special man I met online two yrs ago. Even tho he says he likes heavy women, I want to be able to go on walks, gain control of my bladder completely and not snore! (or at least not as loud) I have a month and some of the clothes I bought for the trip are smaller than I am, just a little. I can wear them but they would be more comfortable a little looser. Even if the man is not what I expect, I need the vacation. I have not been anywhere out of my state in many many years, prob close to 20 yrs! So I cant wait to see the beauty and fresh air of Canada.
I was married for 13 yrs and have been divorsed 13 yrs. Two daughters, 20 and 23. The 20 yr old and her fiance live with me, and prob will for a long time. She also has just found out she is preg. for the second time, she lost the first one bout 4 months ago. It was very tramatic for us all. I still work at the same fast food restaurant, but am really tired of it. Just afraid to go anywhere else, they have such great benefits and I am afraid no where else will hire me at my weight I am now.....
That is me, little on the depressed side now but have good days too....