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04 August 2023
Hello myself, friends and followers!
TRIGGER WARNING - SEXUAL ABUSE
This photo was taken when I was around 12-13. I thought I was SO FAT. Why? Why did I think I was fat? I compared myself to friends and the rest of the school kids my age, and I don't think I was any larger than them. I know I didn't have the money to dress in the latest clothes and my childhood religion and parents were pretty strict on modesty as determined by dad. I now wonder if covering up my body helped create the mindset that I SHOULD cover up my body? I don't know. As I grew older, and developed more curves, things got even worse.
TRIGGER WARNING*****SKIP****
Now, I'm going to share that I was sexually molested between the ages of 11 and 13 by a next door neighbor who terrorized me. I will NOT go into it here, but suffice it to say, I do believe that has affected me and my body image. So between being taught to cover up as a developing child, and being molested at such a young age - well, gaining weight was a kind of protection from attention.
END TRIGGER WARNING*****START READING AGAIN*****
I had a fairly normal weight through graduation, met my childhood sweetheart and future husband, but started to slowly gain weight (my shield) in my late 20s. By the time I was in my mid-forties (giving birth, staying home) I had gained to my highest weight of 346 pounds.
Anyway, finding this picture and seeing myself all those years ago, a normal weight person, healthy, active. I want to know WHY WHY WHY I gained all that weight!
Rant over!
Good stuff: I "handled" things in my past and at the age of 63, I can say I have come to terms and resolved any past trauma. And now that I have done that, it seems I'm ready to shed this weight - my shield against the world - and rejoin it on my terms.
Have a truly good evening, live well, love well and most of all - love yourself because you ARE enough.
First pic: me at 11, 12 or 13...
Red shirt pic: me at 345 :(
Face pic: me 2023
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03 August 2023
I'm doing this by voice to text, so please excuse itty. Typos. Things have been really busy. We have gone on a cruise, gotten back from a cruise and packed from a cruise. I gained 12 pounds on the cruise. I don't really think. It was a bad thing. Most of it was definitely bloating and inflammation. It was a 7 day cruise and I let myself enjoy myself. I ate off carnivore although I didn't go crazy but I didn't allow myself to have some sweet stuff and things that normally don't eat. However I now back below what I was when I started the cruise. My weight is down to 224.4 pounds. I'm very happy about fat and I'm looking forward to hopefully reaching 200 by the end of the year. I totally think that is duable. It's not a fast weight loss. Its very slow. And I am on carnivore and I do not think it will be problem. I'm just gonna keep losing weight until my body. Finally says okay, you're done. My go away is 135 I don't know if that's where Karner will take me but hopefully it'll be in that rain somewhere 135 to 145 maybe. Again. I cannot stress the benefits of carnivore on your health not just for weight loss, but overall health inside and what shows outside of your body. My diabetes is 100% controlled my. Liver in my kidneys are 100% healed from decades of abuse with sugar. My skin looks younger than it has ever looked. I've 63 years old and I look Young. I look younger than I did when I was 43. Truly amazing I don't have any food allergies that I know of however, now that I'm 100% carnivore I realize my body was telling me. I'm allergic to sugar processed foods. Chemicals that are in our foods. I jut vegetables even fruit. Because now that I'm not eating all that. I feel wonderful. I'm not going to go back in. Read this and correct all the typos and. Who knows what else it says? Because I'm just literally too busy to do that. Getting ready to go out for dinner and have bacon. While everybody else has all this other stuff? LO l. I don't mind what other people eat for themselves. I love to spread the word about carnivore. In the potential health benefits you can have from it. Whether you have, you know, diabetes or whatever. The health benefits are still amazing but one of the ways I think it is best is to just show people how I feel and how I look now. I still have close to a 100 pounds to lose but I look so much better and I have so much more energy. My outlook is so much more positive. It's just been life-changing. And since I have had such an amazing good experience. I wanna share it with people. And I wanna say you can have that experience too. I eat revive taebone steak, brisket eggs, bacon lots of bacon, pepperoni Sardis. I eat so much, it's crazy that I'm losing weight. Anyway. I hope this makes sense and the phone audio. Listening saying actually said what I meant to say. It didn't make up some gobble g*** because sometimes it does. Hopefully, you can figure out what I'm trying to say. Which is part of our is awesome and can save your emotional mental health and your physical health. . love you guys, thank you for following long. I'll try to post more and more frequently. I appreciate you all live your best life.
Weigh-in:
224.4 lb
lost so far:
79.6 lb
still to go:
89.4 lb
Diet followed reasonably well
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losing 0.6 lb a week
03 August 2023
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