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Well my indulgence day/ spike day on Monday is the cause of my weight gain so I'm not too worried. I'm sure by tomorrow or Friday I will see a loss again. I'm just kinda excited to see how much??? I'm not planning on doing another indulgence day/ spike day until next week (if I need it). What I have been doing seems to be working, at least for now.
I will continue to read and learn more about weight loss and how different things have worked for different people. I am very confident that over time I will be able to find what works well for me, and then I will stick to it until my body needs a change again.
For the last week I have been playing with fasting and my body really seems to like it. Nothing crazy, just not eating after 6pm and then fasting from 6pm until 9 or 10am. So all together like a 14- 16 hour fast, and it feels great! I have also been trying (it's sometimes pretty hard) to eat my most heaviest meal for lunch (most carbs) so I have the reminder of the day to burn them off and just have veggies and protein for dinner after my workout.
I have found that I am sleeping WAY better to because I'm not full by the time I go to bed. I realized that before when I ate late and went to bed full that I would almost always have a bad sleep and wake up through the night with heartburn or indigestion. Glad to say that since I have incorporated fasting and making sure I eat early enough I have not had heartburn or indigestion once!! This is enough of a reason for me to continue with fasting!
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I am kinda having a hard time at home right now because I think my husband might be trying to sabotage my weight loss. I don't think he would do that but that is how I have been feeling lately. He is constantly suggesting snacks and making sure to get all of my favorites (I have a major sweet tooth) like ice cream and chocolate. I have been really good at NOT being tempted and riding my bike or doing something to keep my mind busy and stay off of the sweets instead. I know my husband really likes BIG girls but he has promised that he is behind me in my weight loss journey 100% and he said he would love me no matter what because he loves me for me and not the way I look. But I am finding it kinda hard to not have the support I need at home.
I have brought this to his attention and told him how hard it is for me to not have his support but he doesn't think he is doing anything wrong. He doesn't want to lose weight and I really think he would actually prefer to gain weight. This makes my home life really difficult because he doesn't support me in losing weight and I don't support him in gaining weight. I'm not too sure how to tell him that though, how can I be a hypocrite, how can I expect him to support my decision to lose weight when I don't support his decision to gain weight?
Another thought is maybe he is just scared for me to lose weight? Maybe subconsciously he is scared that I will want to find another man that is in better shape or healthier? Maybe it is his insecurities that are not supporting me? Or maybe he just doesn't know how to support me? Or doesn't feel that he should since I'm not supporting him on his decisions? Who knows, but I will have to have a talk about it with him and find out. It's always better to lay everything on the table and have a good look at it, together. And we usually have no troubles doing this; I just have to figure out how to go about it.
On a brighter note, we just sold our house so now we can start shopping for a bigger and better house for our family. So exciting! This will be my first time house shopping (and buying), since I just moved into his house when we moved in together. I am so excited!!
It will be kinda hard to keep the schedule I have made for myself (eating and working out) but I am determined to get through it and still lose a wack load of weight!!
Opps, I guess I really needed to vent! Maybe I should make a point of journaling more often so they won’t be as long?!?!
I will keep you guys posted!
xoxo
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305.2 lb
Lost so far: 8.8 lb.
Still to go: 41.2 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 11 April 2012:
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1373 kcal
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Fat: 23.17g | Prot: 92.53g | Carb: 194.03g.
Breakfast: Water, Fat Free Greek Yogurt. Lunch: Asparagus, Crushed Tomatoes, Chicken Breast (Skin Not Eaten), Spaghetti. Dinner: Sushi with Vegetables and Seafood, Sunomono Salad. Snacks/Other: Ice Cream Sandwich, Large Coffee Double Double, protein. more...
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5698 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Weight Training (moderate) - 1 hour, Bicycling (very fast) - 17.5/mph - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 14 hours. more...
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gaining 3.3 lb a week
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I don't think it's being hypocritical to want to lose weight, and, at the same time, not support his desire to gain weight. It's a personal decision to want to be healthy and look good. Losing weight takes sacrifice. I don't know if he just doesn't want to sacrifice, or if he actually likes being heavy. You might as well be realistic; you'll be in better shape to take care of him when he's lugging his oxygen bottle around, just to exist.
11 Apr 12 by member: DairyKing
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I know I would find it very hard if someone was sabotaging my goals, my healthy goals! It's one thing to not throw their support behind you 100% all day everyday. It's hard being a constant cheerleader for someone too. But intentionally trying to prevent a loved one from reaching their goals? That's wrong. You say you don't think he is, and I hope so too. It worries me that he wants big women, and wants to gain more weight himself. It does sound like a heart to heart is called for.
11 Apr 12 by member: JessWhatINeeded
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Wow, Tarla, that's tough on the support front. I hope you find a way to get what you need to make you happy in your journey. The not eating after 6pm or 7pm has been known to be effective. Good for you. You're a winner. You can do this!
12 Apr 12 by member: Helewis
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