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So I was really contemplating on my reasons for doing this and writing down how the process of my weight loss or gain goes.
You see I took for granted the looks that I had and as vain as it my sound I want to regain that. I was always considered by those around me to be pretty hot and back in the day I use to turn heads and get comments every time I went out. Don't get me wrong I don't want hoards of attention, just someone to tell me once and a while you look great. I also would like to say I was never a thin girl I had weight but it was bearable. Pregnancy really did affect me mentally. I am a proud mommy and happy that my son is adorable as hell! I am still very young and I am tired of feeling down and out about my self. I have lots of esteem issues that plague me number one being the weight and another major one is the stretch marks that I have obtain because of having a big belly during pregnancy. I can't do much for those scars but I certainly can take back my life and change the way I look.
Before I started this I made series of attempts for weight lose and each time became lazy and being an epic failure! SO I guess my reasons are very vain but to you whoever is reading what I have to say is that all I want is to be able to go outside and feel better about myself, Not think that people are staring at me waddling down the street, to be able to go to a job interview and not get passed up because a big boobed hot girl made their way into the job, Look in the mirror and be okay and happy with myself! Not cry like a pussy about " I 'm so fat and ugly". When you partner says your beautiful not think he is lying!
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I feel the same way as you do, and we have a lot in common. I do not have any children but I did go through cancer, which for most people makes you lose weight, the meds they gave me made me gain weight (figures) Ive been heavy for a long time, but when I was younger although I was not skinny by todays standards i like you "turned heads". My husband loves me, and tells me everyday im beautiful but a part of me is just like why are you (this tall, handsome being) with me?? I defenitly feel you on the whole getting a job thing, walking down the street feeling people stare at you. Or sitting in a resteraunt and having all eyes on you for the wrong reasons. Im a pretty strong person, but when im eating a hamburger, and people are looking at me like im the size of the elephant in the room it makes me feel like im the lowest rank of human there is. We deserve to feel good about ourselves and have people stare for the right reasons! xx Goodluck
05 Jan 12 by member: mrsmarvel9988
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