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Okay Im thinking this should be the last day of my period so I am hoping that some of this is just due to that. And then.. I dont know.
I'm really not into celebrating this year going by. This year is going to be alot of reminders of what I have been putting myself through for the sake of love for the past nearing 5 years. Like we just passed the 5th Christmas we have not been together, the 5th Thanksgiving, And now the 5th New Year.. It wasn't supposed to be this way. And I am scared.. because I don't want to let more than 5 years be defined by this wait. But I don't want to give up either. I don't want to have to go through this crap and admitting to living through this with someone else. I want him. I deserve to be with him. Ignore this.
Yay for last day of work for the year!
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277.4 lb
Lost so far: 61.6 lb.
Still to go: 0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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gaining 4.2 lb a week
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