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things have just been insane and my mental state has been as well. im trying to get things back on track slowly but surely because i just cant handle it i truely and honestly cant handle it. i deserve to be happy to be healthy and all of that. i cant stand not giving myself that anymore. there isnt really a reason why i havent or why i cant do it. i will and i will have to maintain it throughout nursing school and especially this semester. yes its going to be intense and hard but God is MY God my lord my savior my provider and that does include providing me with the strength i need pull through and make it through. i can and i will nothing more nothing less then that.i know that God wants the best for me and as much as ive desired the best for myself im just now beginning to slowly but surely realize its attainable and NOTHING can stop me as long as i dont allow it to and im done allowing things to im done allowing my grandma my mother my father and anyone else in my family or external environment control my future and health and happiness. i got to much going for me im blessed way way way beyond compare to be doing all that stuff. i truly am. blessed and highly favored is what iam and im stepping into my inheritance of happiness healthiness and overall mental clarity. TO GOD BE THE GLORY & IM OH SO THANKFUL TO YOU GOD THANK YOU!!!!
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243.2 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 48.2 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 0.8 lb a week
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