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Trying again...!
11 days have slipped by, unnoticed, in the frenzy of major stresses and angst...11 days w/o exercise, gym, and eating off-course. Not too too bad in general, but there were definitely 3-4 days where my carbs' level must have sky-rocketed thanks to chinese food + rice (2-3 occasions), or pizza (two occasions). The most worrisome aspect is the Gym-MIA...! It's been almost a year since I've been on FS, and I'd have hoped by now I'd have been HOOKED to working out..developed and inculcated this as a habit and as strict a part of me as brushing teeth!! And yet, wow! exercise still gets relegated into a category of stranger I haven't known before!!! How can this happen??! I want to become one of those adrenaline-junkies, addicted to workign out, and don't do or think of anything else until and unless they've worked out!!!! Nearly 30 pounds lost on FS, and yet I don't feel transformed in this way! I WAS hoping for a more obvious and visible change in myself--internally and externally...and yes, while there are subtle, long-lasting changes, I am yet to feel a dramatic, new-person-is-me change!!
Well, maybe 09 will be the year for such a dramatic transformation...a more gradual, refinement...fine-tuning...something like that..
In any case, I want to quit this BS-ing, and get serious. I have 5 weeks until the end of the year, and yes, COUNTLESS opportunities to get FAT! The holidays are here!!!! And friends and family appear to show their TLC through feeding me!! So, now's the time when I want to tighten those resolves, and get serious. Today has already begun well...I'm going to keep going now straight and narrow. Crossing off days on my calender. Everyday of carbs-watch, running, and lifting weights, and planned CHTREAT days! (once a week, but then, intense exercise earlier that day and the next one!).
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154.0 lb
Lost so far: 24.0 lb.
Still to go: 24.0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 4.7 lb a week
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