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Um, Well. Im not sure where to start. So, I guess Ill just tell a little about myself and see what happens. I tend to get a lot of negetive comments from people, and growing up with a strict father whose always been dissapointed in me (and never failed to tell me it) Ive come to have really bad self esteem and hate for myself. Ive always been little and I remember at one point I did like the way I look. Yet somehow people always had something bad to say. I struggle with depression and self harm, among those things Ive come to obsess with Socialty's idea of 'Perfection' And have spelled where Ill excessively workout for weeks straight. And then diet and starve and binge, Yadi yada. Its come to the point where I dont know if Im too small an should focus on gaining muscle or if Im to chunky an need to lose more inches. I can never be satisfied with the way I am an I dont think I ever will be. So I feel this is one of my biggest struggles.
Diet Calendar Entries for 21 October 2014:
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420 kcal
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Fat: 8.61g | Prot: 14.13g | Carb: 72.11g.
Breakfast: Coffee with Cream and Sugar. Lunch: Vigo Black Beans and Rice. Dinner: Chicken Noodle Soup (Canned, Condensed). Snacks/Other: Coffee with Cream and Sugar. more...
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1423 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Weight Training (moderate) - 2 hours, Resting - 14 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Welcome aboard AugustRush!
21 Oct 14 by member: ckworksalot
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Thank you :) I hope to make some friends on here as well
21 Oct 14 by member: AugustRush
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First off there is not a woman alive that is satisfied with her body or the way she looks. It's natural & normal. Secondly take time & patience to work on your inner self as well as your outer. Read books you would not choose to experience other points of view. Think of the personal qualities you admire & build them in yourself. Mould yourself don’t let others mould you. You will over time that you will shine like the sun & others will love you for it. Be patient as building ones self takes time and is a wonderful adventure you will cherish when you look back on your life.
21 Oct 14 by member: Tikilo
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Know that this site is about much more than just losing or gaining weight. You will find that those that are most successful have shifted their focus from body image to eating healthy and being healthy... the body weight and shape will take care of themselves from there. I am a firm believer that as you balance out your eating, your body chemistry will balance itself as well.
As for the other issues, I am not a therapist, psychologist or the like... but I am a father to a 16 year old girl and an 18 year old boy, and "adopted" father to all their friends, so I know a little about depression, obsession and self harm... You can and WILL come through! She says I am the coolest cat in the cat box! So, I will tell you what I have always told her...
Psalm 139:14
... for AugustRush is fearfully and wonderfully made...
Jer1:5
Before I formed AugustRush in the belly I knew her; and before she came forth out of the womb I sanctified her,
Jer 29:11-14
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you AugustRush , saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you AugustRush . And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart. And I will be found of you, saith the Lord: and I WILL TURN AWAY YOUR CAPTIVITY...
Not sure you were expecting this repsonse, and I don't nomally venture beyond the health topics brought up here but I felt strongly that you needed to here. Feel free to message me with any questions.
21 Oct 14 by member: ckworksalot
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