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Ever-changing moods--thy name is ME!
I must have been through a ton of emotions all through the day--changing pace at about 2 opposing ones every 5-10 mins or so!!! No, I'm not turning schizophrenic. And yes, this vacillation goes beyond the typical norms of "changing my mind coz I'm a woman", i.e., exercizing the classic women's prerogative!! So what gives? Why this turbulence? And what was all the dilemma and thinking about?
Well, it was possibly coz I woke up waaaayyy late today. Thus, missed my workout and my breakfast, and related to that, my multivitamins as well. AND all my morning tasks too! At that point, instead of panicking at the time lost, I re-drafted a new to-do list and came up with time to get my workout in and make the best of the remaining day.
However, a little later I must have started to feel despondent again, worrying about my weight-loss plan, annoyed at my lack of discipline and sticking to the plan, worried about my summer and the rapidly-losing time, stressing out about all the research projects I have to complete and writing I have to do, and, to make things even more confusing, fretting about my love-life!!!
Through all this, I must have felt a little better when I was advisign some of my fatsecret buddies and listening to my own advise to get started. That postive thought must have lasted for about 10 mins! After that, I was yo-yo-ing and bargaining with myself other shortcuts...making a deal that I'd do some of the chores and reward myself a time-out for the rest of the day. And then decided to do NOTHING, and just relax and enjoy a glass of wine and do some pleasure-reading. Well, I talked myself out of the wine, and settled for frozen-entree dinner and chamomile TEA instead.
Have done no work-related work, but did finally go and toss the laundry in, and that's being done as I write..dinner's done, and am doing good on the food-points. All the mess of papers are somewhat tidied up. A new plan has been formulated for tomorrow. Touched base with my gym buddy and promised her I WILL show up tomorrow. By tonight, I also hope to vaccum, sort all papers, get my study tidied up, and have things lined up to get started first thing in the morning. I can't keep wasting days like this everyday. So, enough dallying---tomorrow I really gotta get my act together and get things completed one at a time. AND NO INTERNET-CHECKING ALL THROUGH THE DAY--UNTIL EVENING!!! Coz, once I'm online, I end up wasting lots of hours...so that's a firm promise.
And final pat on the back, I did manage to journal today, despite this weird see-saw day.
Food points:
Brunch: cereal and soy milk (3) + coffee with soy milk
2 hours later: 3 eggwhite omelette (1) with feta/goat cheese (1), red peppers, mushrooms, shallot,and garlic + pita pocket (2) with the same veggies and cheese and oil to cook (1)
Snacks: 2 bowls edamame (4)
1 ww icecream (2)
some fat free croutons (1)
Dinner: Healthy choice manicotti with brocolli (5) and tea
Total: 20 points
P.S: Surprise, surprise, I actually lost weight this morning (went down 0.4 pds)..despite the chinese food and late night snack of ww icecream (2 pts). I really don't know what's going on..but this almost motivates me to NOT work out, as when I do workout I seem to plateau or GAIN; and when I'm being bad like this, I manage to even out and not gain!! Go figure! Bizarre logis, but I'm worried that once I start working out and eating right, I'm going to go back UP!!
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