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Started my water fast after breakfast yesterday morning. The cravings were surprisingly okay, but my hunger pangs definitely haven't gone away any. For whatever reason I feel *hungry* but nothing really sounds THAT good. I've read that around your fourth day the hunger is supposed to subside. I had a bit of nausea after chugging green tea and having a cigarette (stupid) but now I feel good for whatever reason. I felt kind of ill and sluggish earlier on the first trip out of the house, but I drank a la croix lime and it helped a bit. Seltzer water DEFINITELY helps with feeling "full" and helps me not get bored of drinking water. I'm not sure if people say not to drink any flavored or sparkling water because of natural flavorings, or simply because they believe in religiously following the regimen of just plain water.
At the store though.. Within the one and a half days already, I've had of course "you don't NEED to do this right now, just go back to 600 calories or less" thoughts.. That's to be expected. But.. Oh my god. When walking through the bakery section I thought I was going to die. I nearly had quitting set in stone within seconds of my eyes meeting chocolate cupcakes. Bottles of ranch--I felt like I physically had to stop myself from popping them open and chugging them. What is wrong with me? I've never craved those even before my diet. The smells, I guess. My sense of smell has heightened tremendously for some reason. In the parking lot, I could smell the trees, the grass, the lake. Motor oil. A smokey barbecue smell. Weed in someone's pocket. The candle aisle of the store was amazing. Soaptopia makes this sea kelp, sand (or pumice depending on where) eucalyptus and spearmint bar called "Sea I Told You Soap". It was heaven. I unfortunately didn't get any, but I'm broke. I would have gotten a Pacifica candle as well.. but.. $22 DOLLARS?!
On the keto side of things, I thought last night I had started it because my spit tasted rather sweet, but now I don't taste that. Maybe I'm used to it? I forgot to get ketostix or something to check OF COURSE. My fat ass was too distracted by food. I am proud of myself though, even fasting for a 24 hours is a big step for me. I am sick and tired of being so overweight.. I have gained SIXTY POUNDS within two years.. What the hell. I miss being so light and thin. I miss taking care of myself. The idea of buying cute clothes or skin care/beauty products is just like.. What's the point? No amount of any of those things will hide how fat I am or make me truly feel better about myself. I don't know what happened. Car accident, I guess. It mobilized me for a while and then I just gave up on ever exercising again. I wish weights weren't so expensive, I would go nuts if I had all of the equipment. No cardio though.. good lord. I've never been in top enough shape to enjoy it and not throw up haha. Today was a good day though. I just wish I could stop thinking about how long this 30 days are going to take.
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170.2 lb
Lost so far: 6.8 lb.
Still to go: 70.2 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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losing 2.8 lb a week
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