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ok slightly been off the diet. I am back on again. I fight with depression. I have been off my meds for about two weeks and it was not getting pretty. It was not by choice completely. partly it was having the funds to get it and partly I wanted to see if doing yoga and eating better would make me not need them. Well, not the case and the one that I am on is not one you can just completely take yourself off of and I got all the symptoms if you try to. restlessness, easily up and down emotionally, feeling trapped and jumpy. Not good feelings and I hate it. I hate depression with every fibre in my being. I am the type who hates taking medicines and am very conservative when it comes to shots and antibiotics for myself and my children. However, I realize that sometimes it is a necessity. Refilling it yesterday was definitely a necessity. There was nothing that happened to make me say I NEED A PILL" I just wanted to crawl out of my own skin, leave all of the normal things I deal with behind, thinking life might be better if I just were not here. I completely knew that I could not go one more day without taking my medication. My husband is completely supportive and understands. He is so loving and does not try to fix me. He just holds me and comforts me. He can see a difference and knows when I stop taking them. I am a much better person with the antidepressants. I do not become one of those people that just has no feelings on anything and is unemotional. I am just balanced and feel like me. Normal me. Fun loving and even tempered yet still able to feel emotions, just not out of control. I am hoping that one day I will be able to get off them completely but will do so with a doctor's supervision. Until then, I will continue the medications and not just quit taking them. Depression is a tricky condition. It is something i am learning to cope and deal with. I will blog later on my other one about more of that.
Diet Calendar Entry for 21 October 2009:
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278 kcal
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Fat: 5.45g | Prot: 9.17g | Carb: 48.12g.
Breakfast: kroger vanilla no fat yogurt, coffeemate peppermint mocha, organic sugar, oatmeal. more...
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