agirlfromminnesota's Journal, 26 July 2011

I know where I faltered yesterday. But here is where I am.

Yesterday I joined the gym again. umm a full month and a half at least before planned. The heat was keeping me from exercising and I know I am going to need gym respite with the August that is planned thus far.

My man friend and I are going on a 3 week break. I will get more into that next month I am sure. But right now I do not want to dwell. I have 4 more evenings with him after work and friday I took off half a day so we could have a lunch together....

In other news. My wrist is all owie mysterious pain not sure where that is coming from.

And tonight my love is going to wheel me around on my skates atop his (our) parking garage. You see, I am retardedly scared. Because I fell when I tried them on and yeah. I fear pain. But I want to skate. But I am forever anxious. I hope I can do this. I hope I didn't waste all that money for nothing.

Oh and my lovely man friend came up with an awesome place to skate. Hoping I get to try out his idea. Soon soon soon.

Do you ever miss being less knowledgable? Today I am reminising who I was about 5 years ago. I had my anxiety issues but in some ways I think I was less anxious about the future.

Besides minimizing my weight I need to minimize the looming future. And remember to live more in today. I am trying.

282.2 lb Lost so far: 56.8 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed N/A.