I can so understand how you feel! That is exactly how I felt last year at this time! What a difference a year has made! I am still not to goal, but I am beginning to like the person I see in the mirror. I can shop for clothes in the Misses section not the Plus section! In fact I can no longer buy pants at Sam's Warehouse, because the smallest size they carry is a 6! If you commit to Weight Watchers you can make a life altering change! You just have to decide that you are worth the effort! Good luck with your journey!