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It's day 1 of my Reboot Juice Fast, and I am miserable! It doesn't help that I am on my period, and having a little bit of PMS symptoms (the craving of foods, light cramping, and apparently, a little bit of mood swings). I've had only fruit and vegetable juices today, with one piece of shu mai...honestly, I don't know how I am going to be able to do this for 15 days, let alone 30(to start). I know the purpose is to help me learn how to eat properly, and all that, so I can be healthy...but this seriously sucks!
What's mainly contributing to my mood swing is the fact that I was supposed to see Mark today...and well...He hasn't sent me a message letting me know I can come over. So I pretty much don't think that is going to happen anymore, even though he said it would...(I will feel like the biggest idiot if he actually texted). I'm guessing maybe it's because I am getting too emotionally invested, which sucks...And of course, my feelings (apparently) are dirty, and gross, and should be controlled better. I am annoyed that I allowed myself to feel this way again. This seriously pisses the shit out of me off. FUCKING SERIOUSLY! I honestly need to get a grip, and just stop having distractions like this. I am making myself miserable. I was already happy and content before I started seeing someone again. Sad part is, I brought this ALL on myself. I was the one who reached out to him. I was the one who asked to see him more often, even when I KNOW he doesn't want anything. What's worse, is that I didn't expect this to happen. AT ALL. I am so pissed off at myself right now...AAAARRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!
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