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I went to my FAVORITE Mexican restaurant last night as a gift to my Mom for Christmas. I have to be honest, I was expecting to break from 100% vigilance to my food plan and have at least a teaspoon of rice and beans and maybe even one chip with their amazing salsa.
Here's what I realized though, sitting there with mom's delicious food sitting there alongside my grilled chicken salad. A teaspoon of anything will not satisfy the desire I have for it and neither will one chip so why poke the sleeping dragon.
I'm a recovering crack addict, clean for 25 years now. I have often said that as ugly as it sounds, if there was an amount of my drug of choice that would "satisfy" beast, then I would be back at it. But the reality is, I know 100% certain that once I take the 1st hit I am insatiable so for today, I am free from that bondage.
I am so grateful to God that last night, for the 1st time ever, I have made that same identification with food. This morning it crossed my mind of how silly the thinking was that a teaspoon off mom's plate would be ok for me. Mexican food is my absolute most favorite food. It would have brought a sad morning today because I know that I am just as insatiable to those wonderful flavors and carbs as I am to my drug of choice.
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304.4 lb
Lost so far: 21.6 lb.
Still to go: 104.4 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 28 December 2014:
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690 kcal
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Fat: 42.26g | Prot: 69.82g | Carb: 5.32g.
Dinner: Mexican Meatloaf. more...
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losing 3.1 lb a week
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