agirlfromminnesota's Journal, 02 May 2011

I don't know why getting to this 90 lb mark is so hard...
I think part of it is I have stopped caring. I mean I have still been working out. Because it makes me feel good and less anxious. But the food thing is where I haven't been keeping things in line. Granted I keep going up or down the same 5-10 lbs for the most part.. But how to motivate myself to not sabatoge myself once I get close to 90lbs lost. I don't know. I keep doing it. I get about 4-3 lbs away and I give in to all temptations, even when I acknowledge I am not hungry and I do not need tasty bad food. I have awesome rewards in line for myself for 90lbs --calling to get a hair appt I desperately want and need to feel pretty and get some Madmen Joany Red hair and some yay me feathers. And for a 100lbs I am going to treat myself to some rollerskates. I can do this. I was doing so well so why this heals dug in stance? Anyone been here before? Any suggestions?

258.8 lb Lost so far: 80.2 lb.    Still to go: 0 lb.    Diet followed poorly.