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Today is Day 12 of Week 2. So far I feel fantastic…except that I’m starting to dream about food (even when I'm not asleep). Specifically, my cravings revolve sweets (anything chocolate-y and rich) and diet soda. I haven’t cheated at all. The closest I’ve come to cheating was Wednesday when I went to see a movie. I haven’t been to a movie EVER without getting a giant diet soda. It just didn’t feel right not getting anything and I automatically drifted that way after entering the theater but caught myself before I did anything. Today is difficult because we have carrot and chocolate cake from Sam’s Club for May birthdays. Cake is by far my favorite sweet and the chocolate cake from Sam’s/Wal-Mart is my absolute favorite cake ever. I’m resisting and I leave the office for a meeting at noon so I just have another hour or so to have to stay strong. I CAN DO IT!
The truth is: I am full
I have food to eat if I get hungry
I know I will feel sick to my stomach and get a headache if I cheat
I know that I will gain nothing positive by cheating
The mental part of this diet is the hardest part. Really, after the first week, you get used to having to put more time, work, and thought into your food. What I’ve discovered is how heavily food is engrained into my habits, behaviors, and emotions. I celebrate with food. I commiserate with food. Food has been my friend when no one else was there or understood. Food was my babysitter as a child and my boyfriend as an adult. People might disappoint you but food never will.
Except none of that is really true… Food, and more specifically sugar, may have been my companion but it was definitely an abusive relationship. It robbed me of my energy, self-esteem, good mental health, my immune system, and extra years with friends and family. And despite all those negatives, I still managed to get addicted to it. It’s time sugar and I broke up. We’re not good for each other.
My plan for this weekend is to keep busy. When I have extra time during the day, I’m going to use it well. I will plan, prep, cook, and store my meals for next week. I will make an effort to plan things to do that have nothing to do with food. And most importantly, when my mind starts to linger on what I can’t have or do, I will redirect. I will remind myself of how much better I feel, how much better my skin looks, how I’ve not been bloated or sick to my stomach in weeks, etc, etc. My goal is to stay positive, stay strong, and keep on keeping on!
I hope everyone has a great weekend!
Diet Calendar Entries for 09 May 2014:
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1733 kcal
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Fat: 86.06g | Prot: 107.64g | Carb: 143.42g.
Breakfast: Egg Omelet or Scrambled Egg with Sausage and Mushrooms, Cooked Spinach (from Canned, Fat Not Added in Cooking), Thai Kitchen Coconut Milk. Lunch: Whole30 Squash "Chili". Dinner: Whole30 Squash "Chili". Snacks/Other: Raw Almonds, Oranges, Bananas. more...
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3655 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Exercise machine (slow) - 35 minutes, Bowling - 2 hours and 30 minutes, Desk Work - 5 hours and 30 minutes, Resting - 7 hours and 25 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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