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Honestly, I have been thinking about my journey and I realized why it is so hard for me to lose this weight. I mean, I have done an amazing job so far, since I have been stuck in 160's for, seemed like forever. But now I'm struggling about getting out of 150's. I'm very close. I can sense it with every part of my body but I realized something today.
I took pictures of myself, so I could be more accountable, not only on the scale but on the visual too. I realized that I can't even imagine being at 127 lbs. I mean, I can't imagine how I would look then and I think that that is my biggest problem. In my head. As they say, everything starts in your head! And here I am, dreaming about my perfect weight but I can't even imagine HOW I will look then. I have been overweight my whole life, probably since elementary school, so I have no imagine on my mind how my body could look without all this access fat on my thighs and belly. I have never had an example of non-overweight body in my family. Everyone has always been "slugish" and fitness and active lifestyle has always been ignored. And now, I'm the first one in my family who has turned to healthy lifestyle and I want to make fitness and my career. My family isn't supportive about it. I know they love me, no matter what. No matter how many layers of fat I have on me. And I don't blame them because that's what family is about. It is about a support ALWAYS! But this time I don't feel that support what I need and it is very hard to go though something so emotionally hard all by yourself. I'm not whining about it. I'm just finally realizing it.
And I hope that my realizations are first step towards getting out of 150's, 140's and 130's. I have to start to use my imagination and realize that I CAN DO THIS! I can be that fat-less person who is happy with her body and I can help other to get to their goals!
I'll take one day at the time and go step by step. Even if these steps will be small, I'm still moving!
Diet Calendar Entry for 01 February 2011:
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1785 kcal
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Fat: 32.70g | Prot: 64.79g | Carb: 330.96g.
Breakfast: Almond Breeze Original, Quick Oats, Grapefruit (Pink and Red) , Bananas . Lunch: Grapefruit, Cucumber (Peeled) , Tomatoes, Sandwich Thins - 100% Whole Wheat, Vegan cheddar flavor cheese, Premium Tofu. Dinner: Pears, Lentil Soup, Roasted Red Pepper Hummus, Sandwich Thins - 100% Whole Wheat, Roasted Hot Green Peas. Snacks/Other: Oranges, Red Delicious Apple, Bananas, Apples, Gelatin Sugar-Free Strawberry, Pears , Organic Flax Seeds, Light Vanilla Soymilk, Honey Oat Clusters with Almonds. more...
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