cocobutt's Journal, 25 January 2013

I have done very poorly the last few months. While I was walking the dog this morning, I thought about how I shouldn't dwell on the negatives, and I shouldn't give up. I really should focus on the moment. Today, I have done well at staying away from unhealthy food. And I did take my walk. And I know I can turn it around. It takes 28 days to form a habit. I will call this day 1.

It's late afternoon, and this is when I start to feel hungry and weak. I'll have an orange and some nuts.

My Japanese aunts will be here in less than a month. This will be my first time to meet one of the two. I wish I had slimmed down for her visit. The best I can hope for in this short a time is to drop maybe 8 pounds or so. That would be nice.

I hate this feeling of shame about my size. I dread seeing people that I haven't seen since last year when I was about 30 pounds slimmer. It diminishes my confidence, and I won't be able to hide that feeling. So I really need to turn this around. It's affecting my overall outlook in a very bad way.
184.4 lb Lost so far: 27.6 lb.    Still to go: 29.4 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.
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I can relate. Yesterday I tried to put on some jeans I wore comfortably for months to go to my son's parent-teacher conference, & I couldn't button them. Just 4 months ago I was at my all-time low, & I've regained enough that I can see it in my face & it disgusts me sometimes. But there's no use in dwelling on it, & I know how it is in Asian cultures when it comes to being overweight. Do I ever. Realistically I know that weight comes off whenever it comes off, not on my timeline, & all I can do is make sure I'm backing it up with the intake & exercise. As far as confidence, the weight loss hasn't done nearly as much for that as the exercise has. Feeling strong & fit keeps me going when the scale is being a bitch. One day at a time girl. <3 
25 Jan 13 by member: kstubblefield
Thanks, K! One day at a time is right. As for Asian culture... it's funny how my Asian mom never pushed us to be thin. On the contrary, she has always pushed us to eat a lot, even to this day. So my brother and sister also struggle with being overweight. I was begging Mom today to not fix any treats when I go over to see them this weekend to watch a movie. Maybe her people were Sumo wrestlers. lol 
26 Jan 13 by member: cocobutt

     
 

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