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So it's 12:55 in the morning right now, and I have to get up at 6 in order to make it to my 8 a.m training session at the gym. I am dreading it so much.
I first joined the gym back in August, and I was doing so well at first. I was going in every day, warming up on the treadmill for an hour before doing thirty minutes of high-intensity circuit training followed by another thirty minute cool-down walk on the treadmill. I was extremely proud of myself, and I was feeling better than I ever had before. But, as always, the weight wasn't coming off as quickly as I would've liked, which discouraged me greatly. And after missing out on a few weeks due to being sick, I gave up and quit going.
I started back up again on January first. I had seven training sessions saved up, so my plan is to use those one right after another in order to force myself back into the swing of things.
I need to stick with it this time. I need to. I weigh almost 300 pounds and I'm only 23 years old. I just know that if I don't change this now, then I never, ever will.
My plan for this website is to use it as a way to hold myself accountable. I really hope to meet others on here who are going through the sames things as I am. In the "real world," I do not know a single person who has food/weight issues like mine, and it gets frustrating to hear friends and family members say that all it takes it eating less and working out more. I know that is the basic principle, but if it was really that simple, no one would be overweight! I don't have anyone in my life who understands the emotional/comfort aspect of food, or how easy it is to fall into a cycle of "I'm depressed because I'm fat, I'm fat because I'm depressed" etc. Hopefully, I'll be able to find others on here who can empathize with all that.
My biggest problems diet-wise are dealing with portion control, learning to stop eating before I'm physically uncomfortable, and stopping eating late at night. I feel like this will be a lot harder than keeping up with the exercise! Today, my trainer told me I needed to start eating portions the size of my palm, and I literally guffawed. I mean, a typical portion size for my is triple that. Along with that, my trainer told me to start drinking a gallon of water a day, and to split my meals up into 6 small one instead of three large ones. It's all stuff I've heard before, I know it's a plan that works, and it's super easy to follow. Now, it's up to me to commit. Like my trainer said today, 90% of the work is already done for me, I just need to be dedicated enough to put in the effort and I'll see results.
So, this was really long and rambling, but I needed to get everything off my chest. I know I can do this, I've lost weight before (albeit in unhealthy ways), so I know it can be done. It has to be done.
Diet Calendar Entries for 04 January 2013:
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840 kcal
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Fat: 35.20g | Prot: 41.55g | Carb: 86.13g.
Breakfast: eggs. Lunch: RASPBERRY VINEGARETTE, ZUCCHINI. Snacks/Other: KRAFT HOMESTYLE, smart water, smart water, smart water. more...
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3334 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Weight Training (moderate) - 30 minutes, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 25 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 5 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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