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I've done my 24 pushups, drank half a litre of water (and a litre of coffee), been completely unfocused and useless today and yesterday night (although I did go to sleep),and I haven't really been out to the garden today. So, revisiting yesterdays goals - I'm really going to be superfocused for the next 3 hours and get this monkey off my back so I can go out tonight and not rush back to pull an all nighter (or fall asleep in an attempt). I think the water goal is achievable, but I suspect the garden will have to wait until tomorrow and I'll have to take another swing at the getting up earlier bit - although I did get up on time today - so that's not bad. I'm also down to 3 pts (and its 2:30 pm with not much chance of me getting back more than a point or two before bed - this is the down side of counting on exercise to make a diet work - sometimes you just can't. But who knows - I might find time - at least 15 minutes to go to the basement and stretch and do some weights. I guess I'll see and take it easy for the rest of the day.
The good news is that my dirt arrived and is now sitting on the driveway waiting to be shovelled into the beds (although I need to pick up a bit of manure and sand to mix with it for some of the beds), my clothing order from llbean arrived and (imaginary drum roll) the mediums fit (Hooray)and last and possibly most importantly - today I looked in the mirror (while trying on the new clothes) and actually honestly thought I looked pretty.
Even though I've nearly pulled through the hardest part of the diet aspect of this journey - a lot of the factors that lead to me gaining it in the first place still are lurking - low self esteem, perfectionism, anxiety, guilt, stress and time management, that d word that I've been pretending isn't a part of my life. I think weight watchers is awesome, but I think in terms of tackling the problems beneath the weight this community/site etc has really been key. The journalling aspect has given me an outlet for focusing on the good and the bad and the day to day. Reading other peoples journals and commenting has been important too. Its good to know that I'm not alone - sometimes I read stuff and I can hear an echo of that negative voice in my head - and I can see what it does to us from the outside and it helps me to say "shut up!" to that voice. Likewise, sharing in other peoples victories big and small - helps build that sense of "I can". I can love myself, I can make good choices, I can do stuff to take care of myself without feeling guilty...
So thank you to all of you for sharing your goals and sucesses, setbacks and stresses. You've helped me see myself in a clearer light and helped me to address the some of the weight which the scale doesn't measure. So cheers to all of us having a safe downhill journey on the scale and sucessful climb to a better self-image.
Diet Calendar Entry for 16 April 2008:
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1975 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 35 minutes, Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 35 minutes, Stretching (yoga) - 5 minutes, Driving - 1 hour, Desk Work - 5 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 8 hours and 35 minutes, Calisthenics (heavy, e.g. pushups) - 10 minutes. more...
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